golddustwoman
Member
- Sep 23, 2023
- 15
it's almost been a year now and i've been struggling to figure out how to honour him on the anniversary of his passing. my girlfriend is still abusing me, i still have no friends and no job, i'm still miserable and i still miss my kitty more than anything. i don't want anything in this life if he's not in it. i just want to ctb and see him again.
i just want to get into heroin to overdose. i'm already an opioid addict and i've overdosed before but it's never killed me. i just don't think i'll be able to get some before monday (my cat's death anniversary) and i want a buddy if anything to help me follow through, i know i'll pussy out otherwise. i'm the heaviest user that i know so there's noone i know who would be willing to help me. i just can't face monday. the nightmares about his sweet face being destroyed in all kinds of horrible ways are too much to bear. he was my best friend, and when the person who's supposed to love me most keeps strangling me to near death i just want to go out on my own terms. i want to see my boy again. i can't be so alone anymore.
i just want to get into heroin to overdose. i'm already an opioid addict and i've overdosed before but it's never killed me. i just don't think i'll be able to get some before monday (my cat's death anniversary) and i want a buddy if anything to help me follow through, i know i'll pussy out otherwise. i'm the heaviest user that i know so there's noone i know who would be willing to help me. i just can't face monday. the nightmares about his sweet face being destroyed in all kinds of horrible ways are too much to bear. he was my best friend, and when the person who's supposed to love me most keeps strangling me to near death i just want to go out on my own terms. i want to see my boy again. i can't be so alone anymore.
