Venting I want to die soon

[tulipsforever]

Nothing gives me comfort but thinking that I'm going to kill myself. I'm really scared to do it, I want to live a little longer but I can't do this anymore. I just hope that I get the courage to do it very soon.

I tried to OD last July but got hospitalised and sent to a ward. I have nothing in me. I feel empty everyday and I know it will never get better. I'm such a coward for being scared to CTB

 

[ctb_warrior]

Nothing gives me comfort but thinking that I'm going to kill myself. I'm really scared to do it, I want to live a little longer but I can't do this anymore. I just hope that I get the courage to do it very soon.

I tried to OD last July but got hospitalised and sent to a ward. I have nothing in me. I feel empty everyday and I know it will never get better. I'm such a coward for being scared to CTB

I'm so sorry that you have had to go through this. It must have been really tough. Don't worry we are all in the same boat as you it's natural to be scared to CTB. If it was that easy, no one here would be alive by now. So, yeah, it's ok.
And you've us, you aren't alone in this journey.

 

[FF777]

i'm only here (on earth) because i'm too scared to CTB too.. i tried last month and then found out i'm absolutely terrified for some reason (survival instinct i guess).. it terrifies me thinking what the experience is going to be like (i believe in spirit world and all that stuff, but the unknown is scary).. so i don't even know when the heck i'll have the courage..

i have physical disabilities that have no cures though.. but so, i don't know your situation, but if you can find projects or games or just any thing to work on then maybe that might help?.. but i dunno really.. life just blows really..