I want to die but I don't want my last moments to be in agonizing pain.

[colddarkloner]

I want to die that's for sure. I've known that for years. But I don't want my last moments to be filled with pain. Some pain and/or discomfort is fine but I don't want to be screaming in agony, drowning in that instinctive fear. I just want to be brave for once. I also want to be selfish for once and not think about other people. I have lived my whole life doing things for other people and living for other people because I love them. But if they love me they will let me die. They will understand that death will bring me peace and happiness. Surely if you love someone truly, you'd want their pain to end? I would never want someone I love to suffer for my own benefit. And yet I get guilted into living.

So once I pick a time and date, a plan, I am not telling anyone. I will leave a note in my flat and that be it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand as I also just wish to be gone, I wish for a painless death free from suffering so I can finally be at peace. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[diy-event]

I want to die that's for sure. I've known that for years. But I don't want my last moments to be filled with pain. Some pain and/or discomfort is fine but I don't want to be screaming in agony, drowning in that instinctive fear. I just want to be brave for once. I also want to be selfish for once and not think about other people. I have lived my whole life doing things for other people and living for other people because I love them. But if they love me they will let me die. They will understand that death will bring me peace and happiness. Surely if you love someone truly, you'd want their pain to end? I would never want someone I love to suffer for my own benefit. And yet I get guilted into living.

So once I pick a time and date, a plan, I am not telling anyone. I will leave a note in my flat and that be it.

I agree with you - no one wants to end their life with excruciating pain. Other than making an application for accompanied suicide, there are very choices that guarantee a painless death. I have decided to go with something that if done right keeps the pain short.

I hope you find peace and a peaceful path to it

 

[LostLily]

I want to die that's for sure. I've known that for years. But I don't want my last moments to be filled with pain. Some pain and/or discomfort is fine but I don't want to be screaming in agony, drowning in that instinctive fear. I just want to be brave for once. I also want to be selfish for once and not think about other people. I have lived my whole life doing things for other people and living for other people because I love them. But if they love me they will let me die. They will understand that death will bring me peace and happiness. Surely if you love someone truly, you'd want their pain to end? I would never want someone I love to suffer for my own benefit. And yet I get guilted into living.

So once I pick a time and date, a plan, I am not telling anyone. I will leave a note in my flat and that be it.

This post feels so relatable

 

[colddarkloner]

I agree with you - no one wants to end their life with excruciating pain. Other than making an application for accompanied suicide, there are very choices that guarantee a painless death. I have decided to go with something that if done right keeps the pain short.

I hope you find peace and a peaceful path to it

Unfortunately I love in England so accompanied suicide isn't an option

 

[RiverOfLife]

I get it. After all the pain in life it's not fair to have to go through more pain at the end.

 

[diy-event]

Unfortunately I love in England so accompanied suicide isn't an option

If you can make it, Switzerland, which is how I would do it if I had a choice, CTB is free though you have to arrange for you own cremation. They take foreigners

 

[babouflo201223]

Si vous pouvez venir en Suisse, c'est comme ça que je le ferais si j'avais le choix, le CTB est gratuit mais vous devez organiser vous-même votre crémation. Ils acceptent les étrangers

What ? Assisted suicide is not easy at all in Switzerland. First, you have to pay a big amount to Pegasos or Dignitas for example, if they give the green light. And the problem is that they don't give the green light for mental illness, depression, etc. And certainly not if you are less than 50 or 60 years old. It's very very complicated to have their green light, unless maybe for V.I.P.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I relate so much. I really want an earlier death but I'm so scared of the amount of pain (and uncertainty) that would be there for me. Unfortunately though, the curse of being a sentient being means that we have to die in horrific, agonising pain whether that be through suicide or by natural death. Of course those who die by SN would have died with significantly less pain than those who die in any other way but most paths to dying will include a lot of pain unfortunately. There's no way around this unless if you're privileged enough to access SN or euthanasia

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

nobody should be put into a position where they can suffer unbearable pain. i never want to suffer unbearable pain much less unbearable pain i can't move away from. unbearable pain is pain so bad you can't stand it even for 1 second more and want with everything you are to move away from that pain.

i don't even want a few seconds of excruciating pain from a suicide attempt or just from living . i think some suicide methods like hanging drowning can cause unbearable pain . and they can revive you with brain damage after hanging drowning and others . they put us in this horrible situation by making someone helping you with suicide a crime. nembutal , sarco etc should also be available for purchase without a prescription . but they made those crimes.

Everyone was put into a situation where they can fall into suffering unbearable pain and not be able to escape it or move away from it . first they birthed me into this evil world then they made any guaranteed painless way to get out of it crimes. pure evil of them

most people seem to be unaware or ok with being under threat of extreme torture with no easily quick guaranteed painless way to escape it. that should be the most important right to be able to move away from suffering or pain or problems . it's not even discussed as a right we need nor even an issue. we had that right until they made anyone helping you with suicide a crime

 

[finishLana]

SN is a good method that isn't as painful and terrifying as hanging for example. I suppose putting it in enteric capsules and taking a sedative could be a more peaceful way

 

[stella68]

Sono d'accordo con te: nessuno vuole porre fine alla propria vita con un dolore straziante. Oltre a presentare domanda per il suicidio accompagnato, ci sono molte altre scelte che garantiscono una morte indolore. Ho deciso di optare per qualcosa che, se fatto bene, riduce il dolore.

Spero che tu trovi la pace e un percorso pacifico per raggiungerla

Salve ti va di scrivere questo metodo che se fatto bene riduce il dolore!

 

[-nobodyknows-]

I have conflicting feelings about this. I do not like pain, but I think that I deserve it.

 

[Intoxicated]

Of course those who die by SN would have died with significantly less pain than those who die in any other way

Since when did salty nitrite poisoning become significantly less painful than all other ways of CTB? )) That reminds me of cheap ads where a particular brand is presented as superior to others. Are you SN seller? )