Venting I want to be wanted so bad it hurt

[DeadbeatDaughter]

This is ridiculously pathetic but I want to be wanted by someone so desperately and so badly I guess depression has killed my self esteem to the point I fantasize of someone having unhealthy and dangerously extreme feelings for me. I want the kind of person that's insanly clingy and possessive and jealous above all else I yearn for this awful extreme, it's like my brain can't see the danger because all it sees is affection that I'm so starved for apparently. What a humiliating post I'm just high and need to get my feelings out somewhere

 

[valar_morghulis21]

I'm sure someone must secretly felt that way about you to a certain degree, no need to feel bad about wanting it

 

[otomedissection]

This is ridiculously pathetic but I want to be wanted by someone so desperately and so badly I guess depression has killed my self esteem to the point I fantasize of someone having unhealthy and dangerously extreme feelings for me. I want the kind of person that's insanly clingy and possessive and jealous above all else I yearn for this awful extreme, it's like my brain can't see the danger because all it sees is affection that I'm so starved for apparently. What a humiliating post I'm just high and need to get my feelings out somewhere

Ngl I can relate to this in a way. Sometimes I feel like I'd be with anyone who shows me the slightest bit of interest or kindness even if they ultimately mistreated me. I just want to prove to myself that I'm capable of meaning something to somebody even if I'm just a punching bag.

 

[poplover]

i wish i had someone to cuddle with or to ask me about my day

 

[Luchs]

This is ridiculously pathetic but I want to be wanted by someone so desperately and so badly I guess depression has killed my self esteem to the point I fantasize of someone having unhealthy and dangerously extreme feelings for me. I want the kind of person that's insanly clingy and possessive and jealous above all else I yearn for this awful extreme, it's like my brain can't see the danger because all it sees is affection that I'm so starved for apparently. What a humiliating post I'm just high and need to get my feelings out somewhere

I wish I wanted to be wanted. At this point I'm beyond having any spark of compassion or sympathy for myself, I can't love myself enough to attempt to love anyone else. I'm starting to have trouble feeling love for my cats. I despise myself so much that me loving anything feels like an assault on that thing.

 

[VirtualWorldIsBette]

This is ridiculously pathetic but I want to be wanted by someone so desperately and so badly I guess depression has killed my self esteem to the point I fantasize of someone having unhealthy and dangerously extreme feelings for me. I want the kind of person that's insanly clingy and possessive and jealous above all else I yearn for this awful extreme, it's like my brain can't see the danger because all it sees is affection that I'm so starved for apparently. What a humiliating post I'm just high and need to get my feelings out somewhere

Ugh I feel your pain. In a weird way I wish the events of Obsession happened to me. I would love someone to be obsessed with me and love me forever. I'm so starved for attention and love I will do anything, but I have no hope. Things feel like they will not get better

 

[FF777]

it's kind of lame how isolated our current society is.. so much stuff is done online now and people just stay in their house boxed in.. in the past you were kind of forced to socialize with actual humans because there was no internet..

actually though even though internet friends aren't as good as having them as real-life friends, it's actually even still hard to find good/cool people on the internet really.. i've said this before some where but all the apps to find friends blow and i'm not sure how society solves the problem of making it easy for people to find other cool people that they mesh with..

on SaSu it's kind of a weird sort of paradox in my opinion....... wait, maybe it's actually the same problem with the friend-finder apps maybe...... hmm......... but any way.... the paradox/contradiction is that there are a lot of people that suffer from loneliness on here but then if you actually try to reach out to people there is a fear that it might end up weird or awkward especially if you find out you have a lot of differences or interests or don't mesh well with the person etc.. there are just a ton of factors that can go wrong i guess..

i dunno.. but if you are desperate you could just be brave and start DMing random weirdos on here that might seem like they could be cool and just try not to mind if it doesn't super work out tons.. i wish i had better solutions for the problem of not being able to find more friends for people to be with or talk to..

EDIT: WAIT i think there is some megathread where people post to find friends on here??? but i can't find it at the moment....... some one else please post the link to it if i haven't edited this message again to paste it yet..

 

[poplover]

it's kind of lame how isolated our current society is.. so much stuff is done online now and people just stay in their house boxed in.. in the past you were kind of forced to socialize with actual humans because there was no internet..

actually though even though internet friends aren't as good as having them as real-life friends, it's actually even still hard to find good/cool people on the internet really.. i've said this before some where but all the apps to find friends blow and i'm not sure how society solves the problem of making it easy for people to find other cool people that they mesh with..

on SaSu it's kind of a weird sort of paradox in my opinion....... wait, maybe it's actually the same problem with the friend-finder apps maybe...... hmm......... but any way.... the paradox/contradiction is that there are a lot of people that suffer from loneliness on here but then if you actually try to reach out to people there is a fear that it might end up weird or awkward especially if you find out you have a lot of differences or interests or don't mesh well with the person etc.. there are just a ton of factors that can go wrong i guess..

i dunno.. but if you are desperate you could just be brave and start DMing random weirdos on here that might seem like they could be cool and just try not to mind if it doesn't super work out tons.. i wish i had better solutions for the problem of not being able to find more friends for people to be with or talk to..

EDIT: WAIT i think there is some megathread where people post to find friends on here??? but i can't find it at the moment....... some one else please post the link to it if i haven't edited this message again to paste it yet..

Make A Friend megathread

Make A Friend Megathread NOTE: Read this thread fully before posting! It can be hard to find someone who understands, and can relate to suicidal and depressive thoughts. This thread is to facilitate the possibility of meeting a friend who can understand that, or just to find someone who is on...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[FF777]

okay i guess you can't edit your posts after a certain period of time.. but any way there is the thread up there ^ that poplover just posted, so post your heart out on that place or some thing.. or DM people that have already posted on it..

 

[Hugger3000]

Two girls have genuinely loved me.
The first was three years ago. I rejected her because I was just comming out of a terrible situation, and besides, our personalities were so different that she wouldn't have understood me. To this day I don't understand a girl so pretty could actually love a stupid loser who was terminally online back then.
The second was this year, a friend of a friend took an interest in me. I actually hit it off really well with this girl, but the problem is that I'm not physically attracted to her. I'm sorry, but I just can't do it. She tried to make a move out of sheer desperation (previous distraouts relations). Even now, given my emotional state and despite being desperate for love, I still can't bring myself to fall for her.

 

[macaroni2445]

This is ridiculously pathetic but I want to be wanted by someone so desperately and so badly I guess depression has killed my self esteem to the point I fantasize of someone having unhealthy and dangerously extreme feelings for me. I want the kind of person that's insanly clingy and possessive and jealous above all else I yearn for this awful extreme, it's like my brain can't see the danger because all it sees is affection that I'm so starved for apparently. What a humiliating post I'm just high and need to get my feelings out somewhere

hey you and me both