I want to be able to go through with it

[SomewhereAlongThe]

I'm not happy in life. I'm not happy with what I've got and how it's all turned out. I'm 24 about to turn 25 in 11 days, and I've just gotten no where in life. This suicidal plan is all it comes down to. I want to be able to go through with it, and not be afraid. I don't want the fear of failure to stop me, and failure means a lot here, if something goes wrong I could end up with brain damage.

So I'm wondering, how do I work up the courage to follow through with it and not be afraid of the risks so much?

 

[theater]

I cannot speak for you. I currently am not that concerned about risks. I do understand exactly how to CTB and have rehearsed several methods.

If my method failed and I lived, then I would just try to CTB again.

 

[RandomGirl52]

from personal experience and what ive heard on here writing a note can really help, you dont even have to leave it once you commit you can just delete it or throw it away but once you get everything you want to say just writtten out it really helps numb the fear and sadness of leaving it all behind