Venting I thought i finally found someone who liked me, i guess not

[user933957]

i thought i'd finally done it, i had finally found someone who liked me, who didn't find me repulsive to look at. someone who understood me, who accepted me as who i claim/portray myself to be. but no, i can't believe i seriously thought i was lovable, likable, i feel stupid, i feel dumb. of course nobody would ever love me, nobody will ever look at my face and find me attractive. I wish i was born beautiful, appealing or just average. i look at the pictures people take of me and i feel nauseous. i sincerely hope, that if i get the chance to have a second life, that im attractive. why must i suffer like this? i thought my medication was working. i took my pills 3x when i was having a breakdown. now i am panicking because it still hasn't helped me. i know medication doesn't work like that, but i just wish it did.

 

[usernamesarehard]

I'm really sorry this happened to you. I remember feeling like that, it's not great. I hope you find someone who is attracted to you, the loneliness due to not having a partner and the feelings of being a monster is something I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy.

 

[anonymous568]

Yeah there might be someone out there but life doesn't really seem like it's full of luck for me anyway. I met a guy I thought I loved I was planning to suicide and was feeling so alone so got some alcohol before and then I met him randomly and I fell in love thought life was worth living for a moment lol he would tell me I'm beautiful inside and out he fell in love with my character only to find out the next time I call him he says who's this wrong number and he was married all along and I was just a one night stand :(