ardacalvin
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- Feb 25, 2020
- 41
It's just some observation, it can't and shouldn't hold for all of us -- as there are thousand reasons to die-- but in my short time here on this website I realized an interesting fact which maybe many of you so far noticed but at least now I realized and, that is, many of you (including me) really wanna live this life to its full extent. By which I mean to its "genuine fullest" extent. (not like in a hedonist context but rather some kind of comprehensiveness which is not possible to be fully described by our current language --as Wittgenstein said what can be said at all can be said clearly, and what we cannot talk about we must pass over in silence-- which is why it is actually unattainable inherently.)
What we really want is not death "itself" but rather the life in its this fullness, what our desires are mostly calling for, before death, is this unattainable fullness. But I'm still not sure about if it is due to the causality or correlation. I mean, do we really wanna die and are so depressed because of this unattainability or because we are so depressed we are depriving ourselves of will to live thereby overplaying this unattainability? Even though it may sound trivial, say even petty, musing over this question(even if there is no true answer for it) may be helpful to some extent for those, like me, unable to denominate the real cause in our daily struggles. Even we might die tomorrow, what to lose anyway :D
Because, unlike most psychiatrist, I choose not to accept their down-to-earth materialistic and reductionist theories about depression and cognition before I die. I'm not saying I can name and know more but at least I know it's not very low-dimensional like only consisting of fucked-up childhood and genes.
What we really want is not death "itself" but rather the life in its this fullness, what our desires are mostly calling for, before death, is this unattainable fullness. But I'm still not sure about if it is due to the causality or correlation. I mean, do we really wanna die and are so depressed because of this unattainability or because we are so depressed we are depriving ourselves of will to live thereby overplaying this unattainability? Even though it may sound trivial, say even petty, musing over this question(even if there is no true answer for it) may be helpful to some extent for those, like me, unable to denominate the real cause in our daily struggles. Even we might die tomorrow, what to lose anyway :D
Because, unlike most psychiatrist, I choose not to accept their down-to-earth materialistic and reductionist theories about depression and cognition before I die. I'm not saying I can name and know more but at least I know it's not very low-dimensional like only consisting of fucked-up childhood and genes.