mythra
i love this world because you're in it
- Jun 5, 2026
- 14
everything's been going downhill and i think im approaching a point where there's nowhere else to go except cbt. the dci season has finally ended, maybe just in time for me to die, it gave me one last piece of happiness. school is overwhelming and so is searching for a job and so is everyone around me. the thought of continuing into the future scares me. so maybe i don't have to. maybe i can just show him how much i care about him and kill myself.
my favorite novel, house of leaves, has shown me a lot about myself.
sometimes i feel like navidson. sometimes i feel like im endlessly running down an infinitely spanning hallway being chased by my own shadows. and im trying to document it, cameras and flashlights and measuring tapes, to figure out something and make it tangible and easily consumeable. but its pointless. theres no tools capable of measuring where i am, capable of comprehending it. there is no logic, there is no light, and there is no end, no way out.
the only place to go is deeper.
lets all become bats together~
my favorite novel, house of leaves, has shown me a lot about myself.
sometimes i feel like navidson. sometimes i feel like im endlessly running down an infinitely spanning hallway being chased by my own shadows. and im trying to document it, cameras and flashlights and measuring tapes, to figure out something and make it tangible and easily consumeable. but its pointless. theres no tools capable of measuring where i am, capable of comprehending it. there is no logic, there is no light, and there is no end, no way out.
the only place to go is deeper.
lets all become bats together~
