Venting i think its my time

[mythra]

everything's been going downhill and i think im approaching a point where there's nowhere else to go except cbt. the dci season has finally ended, maybe just in time for me to die, it gave me one last piece of happiness. school is overwhelming and so is searching for a job and so is everyone around me. the thought of continuing into the future scares me. so maybe i don't have to. maybe i can just show him how much i care about him and kill myself.
my favorite novel, house of leaves, has shown me a lot about myself.
sometimes i feel like navidson. sometimes i feel like im endlessly running down an infinitely spanning hallway being chased by my own shadows. and im trying to document it, cameras and flashlights and measuring tapes, to figure out something and make it tangible and easily consumeable. but its pointless. theres no tools capable of measuring where i am, capable of comprehending it. there is no logic, there is no light, and there is no end, no way out.

the only place to go is deeper.

lets all become bats together~

 

[mythra]

if anyone has any methods i can use that could seem accidental, please let me know!

 

[chillino]

you seem like a creative young mind, maybe you can join some fotoclub?

 

[mythra]

you seem like a creative young mind, maybe you can join some fotoclub?

thank u! im not sure what u mean by that but thank u!

 

[ctb_warrior]

if anyone has any methods i can use that could seem accidental, please let me know!

I'm so sorry that life has brought you here. Reading your text seems you are a very enthusiastic young girl with a lot of potential just stuck in the rut.
As far as method is concerned, all the methods have a risk of failure, so while i can't suggest a method as myself don't have one, but whichever path you choose, make sure you do your research and planning properly. I have had many failed attempts so i can tell you that from my experience.

 

[mythra]

I'm so sorry that life has brought you here. Reading your text seems you are a very enthusiastic young girl with a lot of potential just stuck in the rut.
As far as method is concerned, all the methods have a risk of failure, so while i can't suggest a method as myself don't have one, but whichever path you choose, make sure you do your research and planning properly. I have had many failed attempts so i can tell you that from my experience.

i am a boy but thank u ^^ ive found some methods that seem viable, thank u, i'm making sure to take my time with research!!

 

[ctb_warrior]

i am a boy but thank u ^^ ive found some methods that seem viable, thank u, i'm making sure to take my time with research!!

My bad, I'm so sorry. Animes confuse me at times. God bless you bro wish you peace in everything you choose