Venting i should have done it already

[tinyghost]

ive had a couple opportunities to go to the bridge to jump, but ive been dealing with so much im too exhausted. i just got out of the hospital with a suspected heart attack. i waited and waited hoping it would kill me but eventually i gave up and went to the er. now im so tired i dont even want to think about my cbt, but everyday that passes is one opportunity gone. my husband has strict eyes on me and im on an end of the year deadline. i feel so hopeless and terrified that ill keep putting it off and have to face that time i dont want to see :(

 

[filthystray]

All that sounds incredibly overwhelming. It's no wonder you are feeling so wiped out right now. I can't help but think what may help you out. I hope you find it.

 

[tinyghost]

All that sounds incredibly overwhelming. It's no wonder you are feeling so wiped out right now. I can't help but think what may help you out. I hope you find it.

thank you this kind of exhaustion is exactly why i need to get out of here.