I never thought i'd attempt to get better, hope is not lost for me yet.

[weedoge]

I'm glad for you. i only wish the same for myself byut hope is fading

If you wish the same for yourself you should reach out. Or at very least make a suicidal gesture.

 

[ratfucker22]

If you wish the same for yourself you should reach out. Or at very least make a suicidal gesture.

Fuck no. nobody can hekp me lol its always the same bs. I am mentally ill, my brain doesnt absorb dopamine qute like a healthy brain.

Il get out alone or it's over

 

[ratfucker22]

If you wish the same for yourself you should reach out. Or at very least make a suicidal gesture.

A suicidal gesture is the most pathetic thing i could do, it just screams fod attentuon.

 

[weedoge]

A suicidal gesture is the most pathetic thing i could do, it just screams fod attentuon.

No it screams for help and we gotta do what we gotta do. No disrespect for Rex but its a similar situation. Its hard to get people to take you seriously without perceived action.

The greatest risk factor for suicide is a past attempt. Its up to you anyway... Help isn't always helpful depends on your situation and the "help" you receive.

 

[ratfucker22]

No it screams for help and we gotta do what we gotta do. No disrespect for Rex but its a similar situation. Its hard to get people to take you seriously without perceived action.

The greatest risk factor for suicide is a past attempt. Its up to you anyway... Help isn't always helpful depends on your situation and the "help" you receive.

Right. I only speak of my situation. If someone out there reading this thinks that you need help, it's not pathetic if you decide to ask for help, I'm speaking only of myself in that post and I do not claim to my post to be equally applicable to all.

 

[weedoge]

Right. I only speak of my situation. If someone out there reading this thinks that you need help, it's not pathetic if you decide to ask for help, I'm speaking only of myself in that post and I do not claim to my post to be equally applicable to all.

He he no worries, I just thought since you said you hold onto hope. There are meds that could help depending how you feel about them. I just feel this decision, being the last you'll ever make, should be reserved as a last resort I'd you have any hope left. A tiny bit of hope suggests to me there are paths you could take to get out of your current suffering the ones who leave generally accept that there isn't a way out for them personally or that it'd take more than they're willing to put in (like me).

Anyway I just talk a lot DW I'm not suggesting anything either way.

 

[ratfucker22]

He he no worries, I just thought since you said you hold onto hope. There are meds that could help depending how you feel about them. I just feel this decision, being the last you'll ever make, should be reserved as a last resort I'd you have any hope left. A tiny bit of hope suggests to me there are paths you could take to get out of your current suffering the ones who leave generally accept that there isn't a way out for them personally or that it'd take more than they're willing to put in (like me).

Anyway I just talk a lot DW I'm not suggesting anything either way.

I don't have any real hope left, just a hope that in this next year I'll get a miracle. If I don't then that's it. I can't do one more day past the set date unless I get my miracle.

 

[weedoge]

I don't have any real hope left, just a hope that in this next year I'll get a miracle. If I don't then that's it. I can't do one more day past the set date unless I get my miracle.

What's your miracle? If you don't mind me asking. Because that sounds like a pretty solid but downplayed hope to me ;)

 

[ratfucker22]

What's your miracle? If you don't mind me asking. Because that sounds like a pretty solid but downplayed hope to me ;)

I just want to be normal. I'm severely mentally ill. I've already lost the last 22 years I just want to salvage what's left which will be difficult enough. I'm just hoping that one day I wake up and I'm normal, that's my hope and the miracle I'm hoping for.

 

[weedoge]

I just want to be normal. I'm severely mentally ill. I've already lost the last 22 years I just want to salvage what's left which will be difficult enough. I'm just hoping that one day I wake up and I'm normal, that's my hope and the miracle I'm hoping for.

Ah I see, I'm sorry for you and I totally understand.

 

[Midnight]

I wish you all the best. Give it all you got man! Hope you can say goodbye to this awfull state of mind we all reside in (or have been in). Take care and good luck.

 

[Lara Francis]

That's great Rex.I wish you all the best.x

 

[bigj75]

Having the will to live is such a great feeling. It propels you in all endeavours. But without it everything seems meaningless.

 

[Duqu]

That's great, Rex. We haven't talked, really, because I'm still fairly new to the forum but I'm very happy for you. I'm very much "Pro Choice" and if that choice ends up being getting help and going through what can be hell to get better than more power to you! (seriously; I'm not being sarcastic). I'm very happy for you. :)