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shlifeit

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Oct 14, 2024
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I NEED to go. I can't do this another day. Every minute is torture. I can't bare myself to hang myself, the feeling is disgusting. I was thinking about mixing oxy + benzos + perhaps alcohol but even that doesn't seem like a safe bet. Why does it have to be so hard to leave this shitty life?
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Enlightened
May 10, 2025
1,008
I am so sorry you are suffering so much
wish you the best
hope you find the relief you search for 🫂:heart:
 
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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Student
Jul 9, 2025
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it's so difficult because of this fucking SI. It's incredibly strong...
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
44,075
I really understand, I always find it so torturous and dreadful to exist and all I want is to be gone, I just want to never suffer again and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a guaranteed peaceful death to finally escape from the pain and suffering of existing, I see so much cruelty in how it's so difficult to be free from this existence I never would had chosen, I hope you find the freedom you search for, I wish you the best.
 
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numbeyesopen26

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Jun 27, 2025
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me too
 
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matt.7890

matt.7890

Member
Jul 28, 2025
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I am in a similar situation as well.. Have been suffering for almost 5 years with multiple psych ward stays and therapies - none of this helped, it is only getting worse. Have been reading this forum for a while and just recently created my profile.

You seem to be very desperate based on the tone of your message but I would suggest to stay as calm as possible (I know it is so f hard) and prepare yourself following the guidelines on this forum. Fingers crossed for you whatever decision you take :hug:🙌
 
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ultradespair

ultradespair

Shut-in
Jul 25, 2025
31
Can relate on the hanging part, wish there was a button that I could press to make it my last day on this earth.
 
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Alexandra0

Alexandra0

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
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Yes. This existence is a real torture. The instinct of self-preservation is a strong thing, but it can be overcome. I am sorry that you have to endure so much torment every day. I also suffer a lot and want peace, peace, only peace
Still looking for that magic button. 🕊️
I have this button - the trigger. But I can't press it, although I know perfectly well that there will be instant death 😭😭😭😭😭
 
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eupdplishlp

eupdplishlp

Please share with me what you are bearing
Jul 15, 2025
205
I'm deeply sorry for your pain and suffering. To be aware of the bad you must be aware of what is good. I truly wish peace finds you🫂
 
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ididnotconsent

ididnotconsent

Student
Mar 16, 2025
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It won't be a just fucking world until you can walk into you GP's office and say, "I've had enough, I want out", and schedule appointment for euthanasia. If they don't want to do it, you should be given 15G of pure Nembutal so you can do it yourself under supervision.

Everything should be voluntary, including living. Being brought into this world sure wasn't voluntary.
 
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