I NEED to go. I can't do this another day. Every minute is torture. I can't bare myself to hang myself, the feeling is disgusting. I was thinking about mixing oxy + benzos + perhaps alcohol but even that doesn't seem like a safe bet. Why does it have to be so hard to leave this shitty life?
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darksouls
Illuminated
- May 10, 2025
- 3,499
I am so sorry you are suffering so much
wish you the best
hope you find the relief you search for
unluckysadness
Enlightened
- Jul 9, 2025
- 1,241
it's so difficult because of this fucking SI. It's incredibly strong...
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 48,490
I really understand, I always find it so torturous and dreadful to exist and all I want is to be gone, I just want to never suffer again and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a guaranteed peaceful death to finally escape from the pain and suffering of existing, I see so much cruelty in how it's so difficult to be free from this existence I never would had chosen, I hope you find the freedom you search for, I wish you the best.
matt.7890
Member
- Jul 28, 2025
- 36
I am in a similar situation as well.. Have been suffering for almost 5 years with multiple psych ward stays and therapies - none of this helped, it is only getting worse. Have been reading this forum for a while and just recently created my profile.
You seem to be very desperate based on the tone of your message but I would suggest to stay as calm as possible (I know it is so f hard) and prepare yourself following the guidelines on this forum. Fingers crossed for you whatever decision you take
ultradespair
Shut-in
- Jul 25, 2025
- 50
Can relate on the hanging part, wish there was a button that I could press to make it my last day on this earth.
Still looking for that magic button.
Alexandra_
Don't Fear the Reaper
- Sep 30, 2023
- 808
Yes. This existence is a real torture. The instinct of self-preservation is a strong thing, but it can be overcome. I am sorry that you have to endure so much torment every day. I also suffer a lot and want peace, peace, only peace
I have this button - the trigger. But I can't press it, although I know perfectly well that there will be instant deathStill looking for that magic button.
Well that button exists, they just make it super hard to access lol.Still looking for that magic button.
eupdplishlp
Please share with me what you are bearing
- Jul 15, 2025
- 232
I'm deeply sorry for your pain and suffering. To be aware of the bad you must be aware of what is good. I truly wish peace finds you
badatparties
Elementalist
- Mar 16, 2025
- 814
It won't be a just fucking world until you can walk into you GP's office and say, "I've had enough, I want out", and schedule appointment for euthanasia. If they don't want to do it, you should be given 15G of pure Nembutal so you can do it yourself under supervision.
Everything should be voluntary, including living. Being brought into this world sure wasn't voluntary.I feel exact same way as ididnotconsent.
I just wish to be dead.
With mental illness I should be allowed to die with dignity.The problem is once you say the words 'I want to die' to anyone in society, you are looked down upon, they think you need treatment. Are we not allowed to just not want to be here anymore? Damn I'm sick of this worldSimilar threads
