I just... don't know what to do

[Mastershakeme]

I want to CTB, because, my life is basically over. And I've completely stopped trying.

I'm 35. I've lost everything, my husband, my grandma, my kids were taken... And my mom, who has custody, is so disappointed in me, we no longer speak, so I see my kids 1 time a month when my dad brings them.

I just feel... totally empty. Every day is the same mononous bullcrap. I sleep as much as I can, but then I have to wake up! And at least eat because hunger hurts. I only do what MUST be done. I haven't washed dishes since last Thanksgiving. I live out of a laundry basket. I hate anything that requires effort.

I just want to go to sleep forever. But I don't know how. I don't want to do ANYTHING.

 

[ScholarOfDespair]

I cannot even imagine the pain that you're going through and your story made me cry. I hope you can find peace.

 

[Mastershakeme]

I cannot even imagine the pain that you're going through and your story made me cry. I hope you can find peace.

Thanks. Any suggestions for peaceful end that aren't expensive or hard to obtain?

 

[ScholarOfDespair]

Thanks. Any suggestions for peaceful end that aren't expensive or hard to obtain?

That I do not know because I myself am still searching for that too.

 

[Mastershakeme]

That I do not know because I myself am still searching for that too.

Damn. Ok

 

[itsgone2]

Thanks. Any suggestions for peaceful end that aren't expensive or hard to obtain?

It seems to me fsh. Rope. That's it. Anchor point is trickier. Still, I have both and I'm still here. Nothing is easy

 

[Mastershakeme]

It seems to me fsh. Rope. That's it. Anchor point is trickier. Still, I have both and I'm still here. Nothing is easy

So not peaceful. I've tried. Total opposite of peace.

 

[itsgone2]

So not peaceful. I've tried. Total opposite of peace.

Do you want to discuss? I have slipknot ready to go, anchor set, read guides about placing under jaw, knot to the back. It does seem like it will be horrible still but idk also stories about passing out quick.