Story I jus want to die so badly I hate everything and I cant stop crying its been weeks

[PAINI]

my life is shit
im from israel
endless war
ptst from fucking bombs and terrorism
everybody's is insane in here
my family hates me and I hate them
I have no community and feel so fucking alone creating clothes and music for fucking no one
and ii just feel out of place everywhere I go I feel horror
I cant stop crying. I have 3000 ideas at the same time of things to create and I just dont know what to choose
my brain is restless
I feel broken
alone
I want to die and yesterday I realized that some opioids and benzodiazepine that I have will most chances not kill me and only cause damage
please what can I do to die anyone can help me
why is it so hard to fucking die why everything is so hard and dystopian and lonely

 

[SoverignDreamer97]

"You cannot please everyone; control the things you can control, one step at a time." ~Suncha Ferriera (Victus Group)/Matthew 13:12

 

[HeyBoogahJr]

my life is shit
im from israel
endless war
ptst from fucking bombs and terrorism
everybody's is insane in here
my family hates me and I hate them
I have no community and feel so fucking alone creating clothes and music for fucking no one
and ii just feel out of place everywhere I go I feel horror
I cant stop crying. I have 3000 ideas at the same time of things to create and I just dont know what to choose
my brain is restless
I feel broken
alone
I want to die and yesterday I realized that some opioids and benzodiazepine that I have will most chances not kill me and only cause damage
please what can I do to die anyone can help me
why is it so hard to fucking die why everything is so hard and dystopian and lonely

I'm sorry to hear that you going through a lot right now, I don't know what you can do to come to an end. But I hope you feel better soon or come to a decision you're happy with.

I hope you find some peace.