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hazelmoon

hazelmoon

waiting for my bus to arrive
Nov 1, 2023
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I'm in my car on my way to my spot to ctb. I have my generator and gas tank ready to go and I'm determined (at the moment.)

I've never even attempted before tho so I'm not naive enough to think that I can beat SI on the first go. As determined as I am, I know I don't really have a fight against biological instincts.

Nevertheless, I'm going to try. I'm kind of scared tho because I'm using a small portable generator and I don't want it to start a fire in my car because it does get hot. Any suggestions??

I really really hope I succeed but I know I will probably be back here in a few hours saying that I didn't. I wish there was a way to just completely block SI. 🙃
 
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DeathSweetDeath

DeathSweetDeath

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Nov 12, 2025
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I've read that nitrous oxide eliminates SI, which makes sense. I hope you find peace 🕊️.
 
hazelmoon

hazelmoon

waiting for my bus to arrive
Nov 1, 2023
63
I've read that nitrous oxide eliminates SI, which makes sense. I hope you find peace 🕊️.
I've decided not to do it tonight. I got to a good spot and got everything ready but I'm so scared that it will start a fire. So now I'm just sitting here distraught. I need to find a way to fire proof my car. I thought maybe using a bunch of aluminum foil but I have no idea how to really do it because I'm not sure aluminum foil would work. I don't want to die in a fire or anything crazy drastic. I'm so sad I just wish there was an easy way
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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Backing out isn't shame. Don't be too hard to yourself. :heart:

Where's the problem with the generator? Or did you intend lighting charcoals?
 
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DeathSweetDeath

DeathSweetDeath

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Definitely better not to proceed if if it seems to pose that risk. You made the right call.
 
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Backing out isn't shame. Don't be too hard to yourself. :heart:

Where's the problem with the generator? Or did you intend lighting charcoals?
There's nothing wrong with it. It works perfectly. But I've always been worried about a fire due to how hot they get and I looked it up and got this. But so many people have done it so idk how they prevent fires IMG 9574
 
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