Venting i have way too many disorders.

[parentportaldotnet]

i'm so tired. i've been medically diagnosed with 4 disorders (depression, anxiety, bipolar, ADHD) and it's getting increasingly more ridiculous and harder for other people to believe me. i hated the first two times i had to ask my psychiatrist about maybe having bipolar and ADHD, which we ended up confirming me having and having to put it on paper, but now i'm starting to think i may also have borderline (a lot of reasons that i may or may not explain if someone asks), which sucks, i hate having this shit wrong with me so much. plus, it makes me feel like i'm hopping on some 'trend,' it makes me feel like some fuckass kid. i talked with my parents (which was super intimidating to do for reasons why you'll read) and they blew me off and said i was on social media too much. i mean, maybe i am ? but my feed is really just looksminimizing for gits and shiggles. i also hate the part of the internet that glorifies mental disorders because i have so many. whenever i think about the things i have, it makes me want to commit so bad because i feel too fucked to help. it's intimidating and i feel utterly helpless and stupid for being this way. i dont want these. i just want to be normal. that's all i want. i dont want to take these medications. i dont. idk maybe i'm feeling this way because i'm on my period ? i dont know. i dont think i'll do anything anytime soon, but we'll see. maybe i will and i'll get to dissolve my feelings away because i won't be here.

 

[Cauliflour]

Must be lonely cause you're so unique. Can't really relate to the depression people, can't really relate to the ADHD people etc because there's 3 other cogs trying to jam your machine thus giving you an experience that others wouldn't be able to relate to. Maybe carry around paperwork from your psychiatrist so whenever people think you're just trying to be quirky, you have proof and maybe they'll take you a bit more seriously.

Hey, at least you have names for yours. Having a clear idea on what's causing you problems is much better than stumbling in the dark so hopefully that can be used for your benefit.

 

[Wolf Girl]

You do not have depression and bipolar, you just have bipolar. Major depressive disorder and bipolar disorder are mutually exclusive. So there's that lol. But anyways, having any disorder puts you at risk for others. It's very normal and expected to have multiple.

Source: worked in mental health