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madameviolette

madameviolette

Another Big Pharma victim
Oct 9, 2025
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I'm so happy guys I received my SN today, shipped within 2 days.

Question in title.

I've been drug damaged for the past years (mostly benzos and sedatives) and my body tries to compensate thinking I'm low in oxygen. I have low bicarbonate and low potassium. And I am constantly in metabolic alkalosis. My body holds onto oxygen in my blood but doesn't carry it to tissues. Oxygen and CO2 are supposed to be balanced in our body. CO2 is a natural sedative gas. Old people die from metabolic acidosis, when CO2 increase in blood while O2 is carried into tissues. That's how they are able to go peacefully after they lose consciousness like a deep sleep. However in my case, because of drug damage, metabolic alkalosis causes severe agitation, cramps, and I constantly feel like I'm drowning and suffocating with muscle pain.

According to Chat GPT, metabolic alkalosis might amplifies the physiological stress of SN due to already low potassium and bicarb. It might delay SN absorption in the gut. And because my body holds onto oxygen in my blood, there might be a risk it doesn't go as planned. For someone with a normal metabolism, they can go as fast as in 5 minutes after ingesting SN and lose consciousness. In my case it might take a while.

What do you guys think ? Am I doomed to fail every CTB attempts that are supposed to be "peaceful" like SN or CO exposure ? I feel like Mother Nature is going to make it very hard for me to die.
 

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