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Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
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I do believe that many people think this, they believe that all suicidal people don't really want to die but it's just the only way to escape from their current situation, I even often see people on here saying things like, "I wish there's another way, I hope you don't ctb, I wish you could have a life of happiness". And while what I'm describing may apply to some people, I don't understand the people who believe that everyone doesn't want to die.
As in my case I'd prefer to cease existing no matter what, I don't see suicide as a terrible, negative thing, instead only the thought of permanently not existing comforts me. It fills me with dread the thought of existing under any circumstances, to me existence is completely undesirable in every way possible.
I just don't believe that existing was worth having in the first place, I believe that existence itself is such a terrible mistake. For me death is a positive thing as it means the eternal relief from suffering, one cannot suffer from not existing which is ideal to me.
I just wish there's acceptance towards the fact that not everyone wants to exist, it's cruel how we cannot just die in peace, the fact that suicide is so difficult is only what has kept me trapped here.
As in my case I'd prefer to cease existing no matter what, I don't see suicide as a terrible, negative thing, instead only the thought of permanently not existing comforts me. It fills me with dread the thought of existing under any circumstances, to me existence is completely undesirable in every way possible.
I just don't believe that existing was worth having in the first place, I believe that existence itself is such a terrible mistake. For me death is a positive thing as it means the eternal relief from suffering, one cannot suffer from not existing which is ideal to me.
I just wish there's acceptance towards the fact that not everyone wants to exist, it's cruel how we cannot just die in peace, the fact that suicide is so difficult is only what has kept me trapped here.