I can't believe how I f8cked up my life several yrs ago. I had it all and now I just hate myself and want to die every minute of every day. Pretending to be okay at work is exhausting. Making uo excuses not to meet people is getting difficult. Why can I not just die
Vizzy
DEAD
- May 6, 2023
- 1,869
Sorry you are going through this, I just don't know what to say because I am someone with little to no emotion (I call myself apathetic), just take it slow and hope you find peace
I feel the same way. Also had a lot that was ruined just know you're not alone in this.
I'm just beyond broken in every sense of the word. Heart broken, financially broken, and soul is crushed. It is just awful
I'm sorry. I hope you can still find some solace on this earth somewhere sometimes.
I have a job I hate, family I never see, most my friends don't bother. My dogs are here and rely on me but they'd be better off without me. Just don't want them to starve to death waiting for someone to find them.
It's a bleak picture. There's no reassurance I can give you about the future. But if you ctb I hope you can find a home for your dogs.
The anhedonic one
Dead inside
- May 20, 2023
- 1,070
Yup, I'm with you here.
My so - called life has been a clusterfuck of shitfuckery due to mental illness.
Also wearing a mask of normality when all you want to do is die is way beyond tiring.
My so - called life has been a clusterfuck of shitfuckery due to mental illness.
Also wearing a mask of normality when all you want to do is die is way beyond tiring.
I've got family that will take them and friends on back up. Then always the rescue to take them back if all of that fails
The dogs are the only reason I am still here for the last several yrs. If I ctb, it'd be somewhere I'd be found with instructions on who to contact and alert them that dogs are at my house
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FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 38,945
It must be really horrible feeling trapped in that situation, it's certainly understandable just wishing to be free from all the suffering that existing brings but anyway I wish you the best.
Hi .
I'm so sorry you don't feel well.
Yes, pretending to be normal takes incredible effort.
Putting on the mask of an "ordinary" person when you feel dead inside and want to die , it's very hard .
My life is also ruined due to irreparable mistakes.
And I hate myself.
hugs
I'm so sorry you don't feel well.
Yes, pretending to be normal takes incredible effort.
Putting on the mask of an "ordinary" person when you feel dead inside and want to die , it's very hard .
My life is also ruined due to irreparable mistakes.
And I hate myself.
hugs
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