Venting i hate everything about being alive

[sillyprincessmeow]

i feel like im goig fucing crazy. im constantly in emotional distress anf now its causig physicsl issues. im too fucing overwhemled right now and i cant stpo cryig. i feel like im soffucating. im triyng to eat but i just feel like om gonna throw up. i hate everything abou mysefl. i hate beig a girl. i hate having so mnay standards that i cant live up to. i wisg i was boy, or at least born beautiful. i wanna throw up, i cant stop cryig. there is somethinh seriously wronhg with me. i wanna hurt myself really nbad. i wish i was dead. i hate my body. i hate my face. ive has the samr fucoing body for too ;long. i just wanna get high but i dont even have that much weed left nor do i have money. ive been crying for forever. i want my booyfrienfd. i want someone. i cant be allone anymroe. i wanna be pretty there isnt any point in living if im not enough. i fucking hate evryone. i hate this enitre fucking planet. i wisg everyone was dead. i wish things were different. i wish i was fucking normal. i dont know how much more i can take. i can never fucking actuly kill myself i fucking hate it. i just wanna die. i hope this dude whos been harrassing me fucking kills me like he said he wanted to. i hope he shoots me point blank right in my fucking skull. i would do anything to fucking die. i dont wanna get bettter i dont wanna do naything. i would rather die/. why does everyoe have to have such fucking bogus standrsds for what they think is prtty, why cant i be pretty too. its so fucmibg sad that i wouldnt want anythinb to do with myself if i were someone else. ik i said i was attracted to myslef but that was a big lie!!!!! im praying i die in my sleep or that i get the courage to do it myself. i wish ther was a way to fix mt problems but thats not fuvkih possible. i wanna hit myself so hard thst it kills me, i hope that is possible. i wish i was a baby forevr. then id be clueless and less self aware and i wouldnt be so fucked up mentlly. better yet i wish i wasnt alive. i dont even know if im alive. i dont knw if im real. i hope i die in the next week. maybe ill start playinb in traffic LMFAO im so tired i kind of give up lokllfxboiojdluikxcdn

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing in this world certainly can be torture, it sounds really awful and tiring what you have to endure. Life really is so unnecessarily cruel but anyway I wish you the best.