I give up

[sohopelessandempty]

I feel so pathetic but I just can't do this for the rest of my life, recovery is impossible for me, and I've decided I'm not going to try anymore. It never brings me any good, and hopefully I can ctb before college starts, like in August or something. Maybe I should've posted this in the suicide discussion section, but I don't know. I'm open to people trying to change my mind but it's pretty made-up already.

 

[minoumyheart]

i relate to everything youre saying, having tried and failed recovery many times returning to this headspace. the push and pull is exhausting. i feel sometimes setting my mindset on "recovered" is the loftiest goal around. so im settling for "okay enough to care for my cat well" and "able to do nice things for others" as my goal for now. factoring in forever into the equation makes everything seem so pointless and distant in the horizon for me.

thinking of you, you arent pathetic at all

 

[sohopelessandempty]

i relate to everything youre saying, having tried and failed recovery many times returning to this headspace. the push and pull is exhausting. i feel sometimes setting my mindset on "recovered" is the loftiest goal around. so im settling for "okay enough to care for my cat well" and "able to do nice things for others" as my goal for now. factoring in forever into the equation makes everything seem so pointless and distant in the horizon for me.

thinking of you, you arent pathetic at all

Maybe I should lower the bar too, full recovery is too difficult at the moment(and maybe forever). Thank you for your kind words, I'll be thinking of you too and I hope we both somehow find peace one day.

 

[YourLocalSadGirly]

I'm sorry to hear that you've given up on recovery. I've seen a couple of your threads and it made me smile when you said you were going to try to recover. I do hope that something is able to change your mind between now and August. If not, then I hope you're able to find peace <3.