I get jealous of people that pass away or cbt peacefully.

[Pearl]

At work a lady in her 70s was really sad and was talking about her husband passing away in his sleep. She said that she's happy he lived a long happy life but she wishes he had a few more years with her. They were married for 50 years.

First of all I dont even understand people like that, because it seems hellish to me to continue living like this in my 20s. I can't imagine living like this another 50 more years. But some people's life is so good that they just wanna keep living. I can't even begin to know what that feels like. Wanting to live.

Anyway, I was so surprised because as soon as she said he passed away in his sleep I automatically thought "lucky". Everyday I go to sleep hoping I will never wake up or wake up hoping to die during my commute to work, this man got my ultimate wish.

I wish I could donate my life, my youth to someone who wants to live. It's wasted on me. Maybe to this lady and her husband they could live together happily a little longer.

 

[FuneralCry]

I also envy those who are finally free from existing, to me nobody who is trapped in this hellish reality where there is unlimited potential to be tormented by existence could ever be fortunate. Those who cease existing are to be envied as they are now free from the burden that is existence, they have no more worries or concerns, they cannot suffer anymore and anyway to die solves all problems in which there never was a need for in the first place. I don't understand those who desire existence and see it as being preferable to being completely unaware of everything, I would never want to decay from age under any circumstances.

And even without extreme suffering existing would still be tedious, futile and unnecessary, I think that simply just existing is something so dreadful so to be able to permanently not exist is the best thing possible.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I can relate to this a lot as well. Other people who don't want to die are dieing while I wish for a peaceful & natural death at night every evening and every morning I have to wake up again. It's so unfair.

 

[forced2live]

envy people, don't be jealous. jealous people deserve painful death
envy and jealousyness aren't same

 

[The anhedonic one]

Yes. I consider these people incredibly lucky.
I never wanted this dreadful existence and to die peacefully, even right now would be my greatest wish come true.

 

[jonghyun]

It must be nice to be old and pass peacefully. For young people like most of us it's unlikely to happen unless you're sick with something. A bit unfair honestly. Its really hard to die young

 

[Livingvsdying25]

I think it's sad regardless when people die but I def envy those that pass away peacefully like damn image falling asleep and not waking up I've begged/prayed to the universe for that to happen.

 

[SetMeFree11]

Every time i see a news report about someone suddenly dying i always think " I wish it was me".
Just want it to end, to never wake up again. Why is that to much to ask...

 

[enough of this]

At work a lady in her 70s was really sad and was talking about her husband passing away in his sleep. She said that she's happy he lived a long happy life but she wishes he had a few more years with her. They were married for 50 years.

First of all I dont even understand people like that, because it seems hellish to me to continue living like this in my 20s. I can't imagine living like this another 50 more years. But some people's life is so good that they just wanna keep living. I can't even begin to know what that feels like. Wanting to live.

Anyway, I was so surprised because as soon as she said he passed away in his sleep I automatically thought "lucky". Everyday I go to sleep hoping I will never wake up or wake up hoping to die during my commute to work, this man got my ultimate wish.

I wish I could donate my life, my youth to someone who wants to live. It's wasted on me. Maybe to this lady and her husband they could live together happily a little longer.

As soon as I read, he died in his sleep, "lucky" is the first thing I thought, too. I PRAY every night I die in my sleep.
I can't imagine a better way to CTB. And tonight wouldn't be too soon.