vkore
Member
- Feb 27, 2023
- 20
i'm in a really weird point of my life right now. i don't even feel constantly sad anymore, i just feel nothing. i don't want to do anything. i've cried enough in my life about not having friends, not being able to do anything, different traumas in my childhood, but i don't feel anything about them anymore.
but i also don't feel enough to go through with ctb. i'm probably going to get kicked out of my 5th vocational school, because i've missed so many days, and i started the school less than a month ago. i just have no motivation to get up in the morning. i just sleep. and watch tv and scroll on my phone and sleep again. i order my groceries, since going outside feels impossible. i barely eat anything. but i'm not hungry either so it's fine.
my mom keeps saying "it'll get better". but i've been hearing that for almost 10 years now. i'm 21. i know i'm still relatively young, but i do not see myself getting better. just waiting for something to push me over the edge.
but i also don't feel enough to go through with ctb. i'm probably going to get kicked out of my 5th vocational school, because i've missed so many days, and i started the school less than a month ago. i just have no motivation to get up in the morning. i just sleep. and watch tv and scroll on my phone and sleep again. i order my groceries, since going outside feels impossible. i barely eat anything. but i'm not hungry either so it's fine.
my mom keeps saying "it'll get better". but i've been hearing that for almost 10 years now. i'm 21. i know i'm still relatively young, but i do not see myself getting better. just waiting for something to push me over the edge.
