I feel like the only reason I'm here is because life is Challenging. I hate being alive

[Cress]

I'm in so much pain every day that only a small percentage of life feels rewarding and doesn't outweigh the tremendous amount of pain they need to endure. Life is a bad deal for me I don't get adequately rewarded for how much I suffer and I want to CTB Badly. I realized that the only reason that I'm even trying to push forward is because of the challenge. It's sort of pathetic though I kind of wish I could just do the mental math that this isn't worth it And move on.

 

[Enlighten]

It's not pathetic. I think it can be a good way to view life and you're strong for taking up the challenge.

 

[SeaBreeze]

Even small task completion often makes me feel a little better. Alot better if it was dangerous