Venting i feel like my life truly is reaching an end

[aeri]

hi there! thanks for reading that

my life lately has been : sleeping whenever i can. i just dont wanna be alive and im too scared to attempt again. last time i ended up in intensive care

this life has reached an end, nothing brings me joy anymore even though im supposed to be a very passionate person. im just bored of everything, tired of everything, stressed up by everything

i only think of hurting myself by fasting or overdosing just for funsies, not with the intent to die

i dont know what to do with my life anymore, it sucks

i just wanna take all my meds at once and get into coma or something. i want to rest and do nothing. i just wanna rot. this life is too painful and i cant do anything with it anymore
i ate today, i hate myself. cant even take sn though i wouldn't have had the courage nor the impulsively i require to do so...
i just want to sleep and never wake up
i wish i had fasted today and i wish i had the courage to take my sn again god why did i have to be saved. at least im all alone now, no one can save me

 

[TiredOfAllThis]

Same feeling here. Just very tired and want suffering to end.

 

[Endofit]

I'm in the same mental state. Every week end Im thinking of doing it. But I always end up chickening out..

 

[aeri]

I'm in the same mental state. Every week end Im thinking of doing it. But I always end up chickening out..

i am the same. survival instincts are hard to silence...

im so sad i talked to someone when i took my sn. i could have died. i dont have the courage anymore to do it. chickening out as well

 

[Endofit]

i am the same. survival instincts are hard to silence...

im so sad i talked to someone when i took my sn. i could have died. i dont have the courage anymore to do it. chickening out as well

Im sorry you went through this. At least you had the courage to try it once. When I think about the process, I totally freak out. SI is a bitch indeed

 

[Unknown21]

Very relatable and im seriously considering ending my life tomorrow morning, I'm scared tbh, but ik this the best option for me, my method is SN also.

 

[ihavenothingleft]

Same here. I just feel like im living for no reason. No one will ever love me and becouse I'll likely never have a full time job I'll never be able to move out. I feel trapped. Everyday I feel like killing myself because I have to see the same people and I see that others are moving on and I'm stuck. I truly feel soon I'm going to do it. Very soon!