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Bedrock48

Dreadful damage, dreadful destiny
Feb 1, 2021
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Currently not well from my attempt. Thought I'd got away with it but apparently now. My skin is really pink patches and blue. My knuckles and knees and toe bones are blue. My veins usually nurses struggle but they are bright blue. I feel really cold. My kidneys ache. And I have blood when I pass a stool

I'm no doctor but I really think you should see someone about this, that sounds really concerning. The "no lasting damage" from SN is from people getting medical attention. I don't want to see you suffering after this attempt. I hope things get easier for you and that you feel well soon.
 
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Oct 4, 2020
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I'm no doctor but I really think you should see someone about this, that sounds really concerning.
I agree with this.
Especially passing blood. I honestly think that wouldn't be SN. Even if you just go to a walk in.

Dont want a shitstorm of new threads about sn and passing blood in your stools

hope you get better tho, with/without doing so :)
 
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SweetDreams500

SweetDreams500

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Apr 4, 2021
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No just downed it

Currently not well from my attempt. Thought I'd got away with it but apparently now. My skin is really pink patches and blue. My knuckles and knees and toe bones are blue. My veins usually nurses struggle but they are bright blue. I feel really cold. My kidneys ache. And I have blood when I pass a stool

at the time, all I could think of was, I'm bored, when's it going to knock me out? Ok I'm blue why the bloody hell am i awake? Just drifted off for a long period
I did the proper fasting, meto and rantidine & propranolol. All of these aid the ' symptoms' of a poison. So , as I didn't feel sick or panicky or anything like that I can confirm they worked for me. It's the SN that failed me.
you should see a doctor.
 
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Either try some detox drinking or see medical attention.
 
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Sep 6, 2020
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I'm willing to bet it was sodium nitrATE even though the bottle says it is nitrite because the others that took nitrate on accident burped a lot too and had very similar symptoms but ended up just not dying. I would not get it from that supplier again. I think it's very unlikely it was sodium nitrite period, even in small amounts as it can be fatal even in small amounts (as low as a couple grams).
 
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keep moving forward

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Probably was tampered with since the seller put it in a bottle then sealed it with tape. Same reason why you wouldn't open a medicine bottle that was reopened before
 
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Apr 4, 2021
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Maybe you ate something with loads of vitamin c.
 
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orlandom

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I think it was SN. But it is probably not clean at all and its quantity was not enough. You didn't plan on drinking the 2nd glass right?

To be honest, I am now worried about taking SN
 
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Feb 20, 2020
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I think you should seek medical attention too.
 
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Symbiote

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My veins usually nurses struggle but they are bright blue. I feel really cold. My kidneys ache. And I have blood when I pass a stool

That is worrying. Sounds like the "SN" is stripping away the mucosal lining of your stomach and intestines hence the passing of blood. Also you're in danger of going into acute renal failure which will kill you slowly. Have you been able to pee lately? The salts tend to shrivel up your ureters and if not taken care of straight away, leads to kidney failure or lifelong kidney dialysis treatments.
 
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That is worrying. Sounds like the "SN" is stripping away the mucosal lining of your stomach and intestines hence the passing of blood. Also you're in danger of going into acute renal failure which will kill you slowly. Have you been able to pee lately? The salts tend to shrivel up your ureters and if not taken care of straight away, leads to kidney failure or lifelong kidney dialysis treatments.
It seems that I should definitely do a nitrite test of my SN :O
 
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Roadkill

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Please update us, loopylou
 
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popcorn

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Dec 20, 2020
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omg your still with us

we never talked much but i felt sadness reading your goodbye thread

im a firm believer of when its your time to go its your time to go whether that's by your own hand or something else.

ive had many ODs that should have killed me but it never worked plus tons of risky shit. where others i know did a small percentage of what i did and passed or seemed just plain unlucky.

i hope your feeling better soon, sorry you had to experience this.. sending virtual positive vibes
 
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loopylou

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That is worrying. Sounds like the "SN" is stripping away the mucosal lining of your stomach and intestines hence the passing of blood. Also you're in danger of going into acute renal failure which will kill you slowly. Have you been able to pee lately? The salts tend to shrivel up your ureters and if not taken care of straight away, leads to kidney failure or lifelong kidney dialysis treatments.
I am peeing all the time but small amounts. Blood from stomach is gone and my colour is returning.
I do think it was SN just either gone bad from the trip from over seas or not good enough.
I really don't understand where this ' Sn causes no damage ' has come from. It's a poison. If it doesn't kill you then your body needs to dispose of that poison. I wasn't expecting to wake up to be honest. I can still taste it. It tasted like a mixture of chlorine and salt. Really chemically
omg your still with us

we never talked much but i felt sadness reading your goodbye thread

im a firm believer of when its your time to go its your time to go whether that's by your own hand or something else.

ive had many ODs that should have killed me but it never worked plus tons of risky shit. where others i know did a small percentage of what i did and passed or seemed just plain unlucky.

i hope your feeling better soon, sorry you had to experience this.. sending virtual positive vibes
Thank you for your kind words <3

I agree with this.
Especially passing blood. I honestly think that wouldn't be SN. Even if you just go to a walk in.

Dont want a shitstorm of new threads about sn and passing blood in your stools

hope you get better tho, with/without doing so :)
I have never passed blood like that it was bright red fresh and a lot of it. I understand my thread might scare some people of their method, I'm fine with that. Because it might convince them to test it first! Not just believe a label or a recommended seller! Maybe it wasn't SN, that's why I was bleeding.

I'm in the U.K. the doctors would put me in a room with nothing in it but a bed for a week or so and send me on my way. They don't give a shit.

thanks. Im a bit better today
 
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alown

soon in the other reality where we come from ༄
Mar 13, 2021
297
in the photos your SN looks very yellow. the one I can have here in the store is very white and with granules almost as fine as sand (its purity is 99%).

I'm sorry for you that you failed to reach the light, I hope with all my heart that you are doing better today
 
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LastFlowers

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Apr 27, 2019
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How is this even possible? Has this happened to anyone else before?
It is the exact thing I've asked about and worried about on previous threads.
 
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loopylou

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Jan 11, 2021
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How is this even possible? Has this happened to anyone else before?
It is the exact thing I've asked about and worried about on previous threads.
I still have the ' SN' im
Going to drop some blood on it tomoz
Would be really interesting if you could test it and post the results.
I'll blood test it tomoz.
 
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LastFlowers

LastFlowers

the haru that can read
Apr 27, 2019
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How long were you knocked out for? I see you did this on Saturday and woke up Monday? At least, that's what some others are pointing out.

Is there a reason you chose one brand of SN vs the other, I thought you had another one from eBay or something? Was the one you took supposed to be better? (Even though it turned out not to be)

I am curious to see how the test goes, this is very concerning as someone who has SN as their method (that's why I'm asking so many questions, sorry).

Also I'm guessing you stayed home?
I thought you had a thread recently which I responded to about location, where you said you would walk out to an area near a railroad, not stay inside.
I wonder what would have happened if you had left your home to do it, if someone would have found you or if you would have been worse off.
I am very surprised you don't seem to be requiring medical attention.
That's something I want to avoid at all costs (I refuse to go to the hospital) but if the SN failed me, I would really be at a complete loss and probably lose my fucking mind.
I've been counting on this, I have not expected it to be as pleasant or as peaceful as some claim, but I at least thought it would be successful if I followed the regimen, now idk wtf is going on.
If I end up in this same situation, I will likely look for the nearest sharp object and stick it in my neck, this is so fucking exhausting.
 
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loopylou

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Jan 11, 2021
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How long were you knocked out for? I see you did this on Saturday and woke up Monday? At least, that's what some others are pointing out.

Is there a reason you chose one brand of SN vs the other, I thought you had another one from eBay or something? Was the one you took supposed to be better? (Even though it turned out not to be)

I am curious to see how the test goes, this is very concerning as someone who has SN as their method (that's why I'm asking so many questions, sorry).

Also I'm guessing you stayed home?
I thought you had a thread recently which I responded to about location, where you said you would walk out to an area near a railroad, not stay inside.
I wonder what would have happened if you had left your home to do it, if someone would have found you or if you would have been worse off.
I am very surprised you don't seem to be requiring medical attention.
That's something I want to avoid at all costs (I refuse to go to the hospital) but if the SN failed me, I would really be at a complete loss and probably lose my fucking mind.
I've been counting on this, I have not expected it to be as pleasant or as peaceful as some claim, but I at least thought it would be successful if I followed the regimen, now idk wtf is going on.
If I end up in this same situation, I will likely look for the nearest sharp object and stick it in my neck, this is so fucking exhausting.
You don't need to say sorry, it's why I made a thread to discuss it with others.
It seems I was out from late Saturday night till Monday.

I chose the Russian brand as it looked more like a better grade, lab grade. I have another sellers from eBay that's from Poland . I will send you photos of both so you can see what I mean. As I won't be able to test the second one till the day I try again as I don't want air to get to it. I was hoping to go to my location outside but I was pretty upset on the weekend and was mid argument with someone and I just downed it. It took what felt like she's for my lips to go blue, but they went VERY blue. Should of took a picture. From my experience, it is a peaceful method. ( if it was actually SN) but then I added the ' luxury' items to my method so I bet that helped.

I probably should of seen a doctor, but I live in the U.K. they wouldn't of done much except Chuck me in an empty room for a few days. I don't want to be sectioned and I don't want to be saved / helped. I'm used to being always in pain and suffering so it's not so bad :)
 
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Feb 6, 2021
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I've been counting on this, I have not expected it to be as pleasant or as peaceful as some claim, but I at least thought it would be successful if I followed the regimen, now idk wtf is going on.
I feel the same way, this has really worried me. I'm glad you're doing a bit better now looplou.

Fuck, I was so confident as I have everything ready. Even propranolol and Xanax.

My nitrite test strips just arrived so I'm going to try and do a nitrite aquarium test today.

Keep us updated on your symptoms.
 
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loopylou

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I feel the same way, this has really worried me. I'm glad you're doing a bit better now looplou.

Fuck, I was so confident as I have everything ready. Even propranolol and Xanax.

My nitrite test strips just arrived so I'm going to try and do a nitrite aquarium test today.

Keep us updated on your symptoms.
Ah great! How complicated is the test strip process ? I wanna know what's in my ' SN' attempt.
 
BrokenArrow

BrokenArrow

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Feb 6, 2021
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Ah great! How complicated is the test strip process ? I wanna know what's in my ' SN' attempt.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/testing-my-sn-using-the-aquarium-testing-strips.31522/

This thread has step by step instructions with pics as well.

There's other threads on this if you just type "sn test" in the search bar.
 
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loopylou

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https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/testing-my-sn-using-the-aquarium-testing-strips.31522/

This thread has step by step instructions with pics as well.

There's other threads on this if you just type "sn test" in the search bar.
Thanks very much
 
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BrokenArrow

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Any update on your symptoms Loopylou?

Did you seek any medical attention?

Your failed attempt has me pretty worried about what's in store for me.
 
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loopylou

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Jan 11, 2021
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Any update on your symptoms Loopylou?

Did you seek any medical attention?

Your failed attempt has me pretty worried about what's in store for me.
Just feeling the cold a lot which I don't usually. Cold hands and feet and a shiver feeling down my spine. I'm good considering whatever the bloody hell it was I took. Have you done any testing yet ?
 
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Just feeling the cold a lot which I don't usually. Cold hands and feet and a shiver feeling down my spine. I'm good considering whatever the bloody hell it was I took. Have you done any testing yet ?
Although your attempt failed, in some ways it's made me feel better about SN, as you seem to be relatively ok. Like, you're surviving and didn't even have to go to hospital. It's sad that you failed, but proves that you can survive an SN attempt without too much damage.

I did a very basic, unscientific SN test today lol, as I'm waiting for my syringe to arrive.

I had a pint of tap water, tested it - 0 Nitrite reading.

Then stirred in 0.5 grams of SN and used a new test strip - it came back full strength Nitrite reading.

I'm going to do a more scientific test soon, but I'm pretty confident at this point that my SN is good.

Really fluffy, snow like consistency with an ever so slight yellow tinge.

Ok, I'm rambling, too much Xanax.
 
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Sep 21, 2020
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Perhaps it was meant to be?
Try to be gentle and kind to yourself.
-A :heart:
 
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loopylou

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Jan 11, 2021
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Although your attempt failed, in some ways it's made me feel better about SN, as you seem to be relatively ok. Like, you're surviving and didn't even have to go to hospital. It's sad that you failed, but proves that you can survive an SN attempt without too much damage.

I did a very basic, unscientific SN test today lol, as I'm waiting for my syringe to arrive.

I had a pint of tap water, tested it - 0 Nitrite reading.

Then stirred in 0.5 grams of SN and used a new test strip - it came back full strength Nitrite reading.

I'm going to do a more scientific test soon, but I'm pretty confident at this point that my SN is good.

Really fluffy, snow like consistency with an ever so slight yellow tinge.

Ok, I'm rambling, too much Xanax.
Yes I kept hold of the batch to test it. What strips did you use please?
 
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BrokenArrow

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Yes I kept hold of the batch to test it. What strips did you use please?
I used these, it's a pack of 5 - Amazon product ASIN B079C1L89G
There's a whole variety of different test strips available and they're cheap.

Please do a test on your SN batch as I'd be really interested to know what the reading is.

Cute Spaniel, btw!
 
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loopylou

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Jan 11, 2021
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I used these, it's a pack of 5 - Amazon product ASIN B079C1L89G
There's a whole variety of different test strips available and they're cheap.

Please do a test on your SN batch as I'd be really interested to know what the reading is.

Cute Spaniel, btw!
I honestly think I have nitrate not nitrite from what I have been reading. Thanks for that will buy some
 

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