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estadiare

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Aug 31, 2022
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The dream started as I was sitting on my bed with a kitchen knive in my hand. I wanted to kill myself. As I pushed the knive into my neck, I started getting dizzy. I felt extreme discomfort in my neck, but no pain. I thought I was done with. I started browsing social media etc. I drank some water, and some of it went out of the hole I had created in my neck. But after a couple minutes, I realized that I wasn't going to die; my neck had almost stopped bleeding and the hole was sorta sticked together. The dizzyness was gone. So I grabbed the knive again. Then I was suddenly overcome with desperation, doubt and survival instinct. I could just call 911, drop the knive and continue to live. I had this innate fear and 'sense of impending doom' inside of me. If i don't stop, i could fuck my life up for ever. But then I thought that I went too far to stop now. I may have another try at life, but this all won't matter when I killed myself. If I don't do it, then I will have to explain everyone what happened and i wouldnt be able to kill myself for a while. So I hesitantly grabbed the knive and pushed it into my neck. Slowly I felt my consciousness fading, so I pushed the knive harder. my vision disappeared. Then I realized that it was a dream and woke up at 5 am in my bed.
 
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FuneralCry

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I'm always so surprised when people can remember their dreams so vividly, I never can. The method that you dreamt about sounds so horrific to me.
 
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Honestly I thought survival instinct would take over but you fougth it and finished it.. you must have a lot of will power.
 
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The dream started as I was sitting on my bed with a kitchen knive in my hand. I wanted to kill myself. As I pushed the knive into my neck, I started getting dizzy. I felt extreme discomfort in my neck, but no pain. I thought I was done with. I started browsing social media etc. I drank some water, and some of it went out of the hole I had created in my neck. But after a couple minutes, I realized that I wasn't going to die; my neck had almost stopped bleeding and the hole was sorta sticked together. The dizzyness was gone. So I grabbed the knive again. Then I was suddenly overcome with desperation, doubt and survival instinct. I could just call 911, drop the knive and continue to live. I had this innate fear and 'sense of impending doom' inside of me. If i don't stop, i could fuck my life up for ever. But then I thought that I went too far to stop now. I may have another try at life, but this all won't matter when I killed myself. If I don't do it, then I will have to explain everyone what happened and i wouldnt be able to kill myself for a while. So I hesitantly grabbed the knive and pushed it into my neck. Slowly I felt my consciousness fading, so I pushed the knive harder. my vision disappeared. Then I realized that it was a dream and woke up at 5 am in my bed.
I've been having a lot of dreams like that lately too, throughout this entire month actually, really scary.
 
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wpos

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Jan 22, 2023
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Strangely enough I've never dreamt about suicide, until last week. Details are a bit vague, as I'm not the kind who really remembers dreams, but I remember trying to hang myself and it having no effect. Can't remember the circumstance of the dream leading up to that. But I recall waking up and being in a daze for a few moments, just lying there in the darkness, wondering whether it had really happened and being confused why it had failed.
 
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NoHorizon

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Sounds like a really vivid dream. How did you feel when you woke up?

I often daydream about walking into the staff room at work and jamming a kitchen knife into my neck.
 
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estadiare

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I'm always so surprised when people can remember their dreams so vividly, I never can. The method that you dreamt about sounds so horrific to me.
if you wanna remember your dreams, get a notepad and put it next to your bed, and first thing you do in the morning is try to remember as much of your dream as you can and write down keywords, then after you've written down the keywords you can try to write down your dream in detail

i did this for a while but then i realized that i always dream up some really embarassing bs, like it's so humiliating shit that I often skipped over many details when writing my dreams down. I stopped my dream diary because of this and now I only remember violent dreams that wake me up lol
 
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