Venting I don't want to take another day anymore

[MoonlitNight]

I can't go on for another day like this. I'm trapped and controlled and i just have no freedom and im stuck here for what, the next 3-4 years? Because college won't fucking save me from these hell spawns and i want to rip my hair apart and tear my heart into pieces if it means i don't get to wake up to this house another day. All I'm doing is self harm self harm self harm ALL DAY AND I CANT SOOTHE I CANT SOOTHE I NEED SOMETHING TO DISTRACT ME FROM THESE PEOPLE I CANT TAKE THIS ANYMORE. I CANT. IM SICK OF BEING MICROMANAGED AND BEING CALLED A SINNER, LAZY AND SELFISH FOR EVERY LITTLE THING I DO BECAUSE GOD FORBID I BE A HUMAN WITH MY OWN PERSONALITY AND IDENTITY THAT DOESNT HAVE A LIFE OF MY OWN AND HAS TO FOLLOW THEIR WORD TO A FUCKING T

I feel like im about to lose my mind and i prefer it happen physically. I want to go now. I'm so tired. I want to rest.

 

[Grog]

Just try to keep in mind that you even stated that you won't be stuck there forever. In three or four years, you'll be out of that situation? If that's the case, try to hang on until then. At least in three or four years, there will be a light at the end of the tunnel, right?
It's not going to be easy; three to four years is a long time. But, it can be done.