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Worwyn
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- Dec 9, 2020
- 9
I've always been weird, I never really had friends. Now I've gone and alienated myself from the only friends I did have and gotten evicted because I went full creep on my best friend/roommate. I don't want to live anymore being a creepy/psycho in the minds of anyone I ever cared about. My oldest friend, her family all my college friends. I haven't even been home in years, but I know my mom will hurt if I ctb. But I don't want to hurt anyone else or live in the world that I created. I know so many people here would have killed to have a friendship like that so I feel even more stupid and ungrateful that I burned it all for nothing. I've wanted to ctb since I was 13, laughing with her was one of the only things that made those thoughts quieter, but then I go and hurt her like this. I don't want a chance to do that again. I'm thinking CM out in the hills somewhere might be best, or a cliff in a secluded park? I don't want someone to have to deal with my body if I can help it.