Venting Am I selfish for wanting to end it all?

[Jamesun]

Well, lately I've realized something: it never gets better; I always end up hurting myself.I don't know, there's someone by my side, a girl I love and who loves me, but I have so many problems. She genuinely wants to be with me and sees a future together But I'm such a horrible person, and lately I just think about dying. The anxiety and uncertainty are killing me.
I feel so selfish, I just don't see a future for myself. God, I don't know what he sees in me. I'm just a useless person who wants to die.I swore to her that I wouldn't die and that I would stay with her, but I'm so stupid and I'm only thinking about dying. If anything could save me, I would take it.

 

[Ben 111]

Ur not alone

 

[Jadeith]

I feel so selfish, I just don't see a future for myself.

Nothing selfish about it. Depression does that to a mind.

God, I don't know what he sees in me. I'm just a useless person who wants to die

Then, maybe..... ask? Is it possible that your eyes are closed to sth your beloved sees clearly. Honesty is a foundation of any good relationship so if you value her in any shape or form, i strongly suggest that you should explain to her how you feel about yourself and whole situation.

 

[Secro]

There's nothing selfish about it, but you have someone who appreciates you. Think about your situation and ask yourself if everything is really as awful as you think.