I wont be able to ctb tonight either. So i had to study for my midterm tomorrow. It got me thinking whether its really the right choice to ctb. But i realized ive already fucked up too much. I hate living. Even if went back to normal its too much work. Im not able to study. And im gonna fail tomorrow and i dont think i even care. How did my life come to this
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Jun123
Lost in dreams
- Dec 3, 2025
- 36
I actually feel pretty similar to you. I feel like I destroyed my life beyond repair and the only way out is ctb.
If you don't feel comfortable right now that's ok. You can always just wait a couple of weeks, live your life to it's best and who knows maybe your decision might change.
And by the way I didn't believe I'd pass my exams but I got through somehow, so don't give up when the exam is not over yet
fishperson
If only luck was by my side
- Jan 22, 2026
- 417
Ye i get it , it feels like u r too far gone , commited too much to ctb. That u dont wanna go back and deal with all the responsibilities u gave up on
ar.fweo
Life comes and goes -Ares
- Mar 14, 2026
- 10
Im in the same situation rn, im genuinely so fucked to the point people can't even see the good in me,I have fucked up so much and I want ctb so badly but im too scared to do it
purebliss
"Just be happy" =)
- Mar 3, 2026
- 223
Hey. It is almost never too late to turn back in life.
If it's only life choices that make you feel that you want to CTB there are ways out of it.
For me it has never been life choices alone that made me want to CTB but more an inherent suicide drive that has been in me since I was 13.Similar threads
