Help Thinking of getting a driving license for when I do it

[Salhalla]

Im thinking about acquiring a drivers license before I do it because I wanna be able to drive on my own to anywhere I want. I wanna drive to somewhere really isolated , away from everybody , maybe in like a forest or something and thats where I wanna die. I have not been on this forum much since I created this account but I have just had my final straw and I have no choice but to end it now. Its better to be dead than to be in this current state that im in. I wanna buy about 10 kg of sodium nitrite stuff it in my car and drive off somewhere when its dark turn on my car engine so I inhale carbon monoxide (I havent really looked into the methods that much). I cant die in my room , I cant incase my parents catch me mid attempt they are always around the house even when both of them are gone its usually only for a few hours. I dont think I can commit at home unless I have a method that I am 100% sure will work very fast. Otherwise I think I might just suffer for a few more months then kill myself in a car.

 

[Endstati0n]

Cars dont produce enough carbon monoxide to ctb anymore. Having a driver license is cool, but then you need to buy a car. After you're dead, who's gonna pay got the isurance? You'll give your parents debt.

I think you should take more time to think about this decision and think everything through better.

 

[Salhalla]

Cars dont produce enough carbon monoxide to ctb anymore. Having a driver license is cool, but then you need to buy a car. After you're dead, who's gonna pay got the isurance? You'll give your parents debt.

I think you should take more time to think about this decision and think everything through better.

I dont care about after I die , I just wanna end it , the reason im thinking of getting some cheap 2nd hand car is because it gives me more options. I can buy like 5kg of charcoal and die from carbon monoxide poisoning , I can die from SN and I can also die of a car crash from going 250 an hour. I just wanna die , I dont care too much about what happens to people after I die and what people will think of me after I commit. Since I will be dead

 

[Endstati0n]

I dont care about after I die , I just wanna end it , the reason im thinking of getting some cheap 2nd hand car is because it gives me more options. I can buy like 5kg of charcoal and die from carbon monoxide poisoning , I can die from SN and I can also die of a car crash from going 250 an hour. I just wanna die , I dont care too much about what happens to people after I die and what people will think of me after I commit. Since I will be dead

Those are all painful methods with high SI probably kicking in. I feel like you are still young. How are you planning on buying all that stuff? A drivers license is expensive, a second hand car is too.

Spent more time thinking about this stuff and if its worth it.

 

[m3nhera]

Im thinking about acquiring a drivers license before I do it because I wanna be able to drive on my own to anywhere I want. I wanna drive to somewhere really isolated , away from everybody , maybe in like a forest or something and thats where I wanna die. I have not been on this forum much since I created this account but I have just had my final straw and I have no choice but to end it now. Its better to be dead than to be in this current state that im in. I wanna buy about 10 kg of sodium nitrite stuff it in my car and drive off somewhere when its dark turn on my car engine so I inhale carbon monoxide (I havent really looked into the methods that much). I cant die in my room , I cant incase my parents catch me mid attempt they are always around the house even when both of them are gone its usually only for a few hours. I dont think I can commit at home unless I have a method that I am 100% sure will work very fast. Otherwise I think I might just suffer for a few more months then kill myself in a car.

We seem around the same age, I'd tell you not to do this and think through it more and stuff but I can't force anyone to do or not do anything.

And everyone says that bullshit not understanding that you want to die more than anything even if it means all the terrible consequences people warn you about, in the end it won't matter to you anymore.

I'm replying basically to say as someone else who is probably around the same age I know how frustrating it is to have that get in the way of methods.

So much restriction, I need to get my license too. I still don't have it. You're not alone, and living with parents makes things harder. The fear of them catching you, when suicide would be so much easier if you lived alone. I understand. Not to mention not having lots of money at this age to even buy your own car.

I'm sorry for whatever pushed you to this point, and I'm sorry about all the shit in the way. I hope it doesn't have to come to this for many reasons but also because clearly you're still young, but no matter what happens I hope it brings you peace. Or at least an end to the pain.