I dont think I can hold on much longer

[zizzou]

They said that grief would get easier as time passes but everyday that takes me further away from her and closer to acceptance grts harder and harder. This anguish and helplessness. The loss of the future we promised each other. The guilt of not being there when she needed me to be. I'm still just here cause I think it's all a lie. The day I accept it is the day I'll kill myself. I don't think I'll last the year