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cowgirlmagic

stupid, stupid girl
May 27, 2026
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I try to think about my future and I really doubt it'll be anything good. I can't really imagine myself having a nice life that is worth to keep. I don't think I was born to enjoy my place on earth, if anything my life has just been repeated discomfort and sadness. I'm not good with people and I'm not really good at staying alone with my thoughts either. I don't think I'll never achieve anything worth to stay alive for, and I don't have anyone to stay alive for either. Sometimes I feel like life just wasn't meant for me.
 
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hdead

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Jun 2, 2026
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I can relate to you. I am sorry to read you feel like this. I also feel like this life wasn't designed for me. I don't like to externalize blame, however I can't get around the idea that the information age and lack of parental guidance plus the slow dissapearance of community in the flesh has really done a number on some of us.

Writing really helped me to get out of my mind. If you want a safe way of calming yourself down I would highly suggest chamomile and dandelion tea. Valerian and passionflower drops also work wonders to calm the mind. If you combine these, I bet your days could be soothed at least a little bit.

Keep strong, my fellow lost soul. I hope we can rejoice in love one day, when all of this is over. Until then I wish you courage, love and sovereignity.
 
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cowgirlmagic

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May 27, 2026
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I can relate to you. I am sorry to read you feel like this. I also feel like this life wasn't designed for me. I don't like to externalize blame, however I can't get around the idea that the information age and lack of parental guidance plus the slow dissapearance of community in the flesh has really done a number on some of us.

Writing really helped me to get out of my mind. If you want a safe way of calming yourself down I would highly suggest chamomile and dandelion tea. Valerian and passionflower drops also work wonders to calm the mind. If you combine these, I bet your days could be soothed at least a little bit.

Keep strong, my fellow lost soul. I hope we can rejoice in love one day, when all of this is over. Until then I wish you courage, love and sovereignity.

Tysm for the advice, I'll take it into account, and I wish you the same as well (..â—śá´—â—ť..)
 
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