Venting I dont even know if i wanna CTB

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Sometimes i feel like wanting to CTB is just me wanting attention, because everyone says that suicide is selfish sometimes it makes me think that too because of how easy i believe what other people say. Now i dont even know if im suicidal or an attention whore. I also have HPD which makes everything worse. Have no one to talk to so thought id put it here. Thanks