Venting I derealized

[𝐘𝐨ñ𝐥𝐮]

So, recently I experienced derealization again. I was anxious and at some point I couldn't know if I was dreaming or awake. It feels like I was drunk, like the feeling when you know that is something wrong but you can't tell what is it. After almost 3 hours I start to feel better, but was one of the worst feelings that I ever had. I don't know if it can be my meds or I'm just going crazy. It was the second time that this happened this month. Anyone have expected this too?

 

[starsofevernight]

Derealisation and dissociation is the worst… you're not going crazy. It's over now, and if it ever comes again, it will pass. You are going to be okay, you're not an anomaly or broken. I've experienced it, and many others have too.


Below, and you can ignore this if you want, are things that may be helpful. Do what works for you.

I personally as someone with a diagnosis of a dissociative disorder found certain ways to ground effective, like trying to distract my brain by doing easy mathematics, or when it gets really bad, trying to use an intense sensory sensation like a strong mint or something. DIS-SOS has some techniques specifically for dissociation: https://www.dis-sos.com/orientation-and-grounding/ https://www.dis-sos.com/dbt-skills-mind/ https://www.dis-sos.com/dbt-skills-body/ in order to use re severity of derealisation. I've heard 5-4-3-2-1 grounding technique is helpful for some, but not for me.

Obviously this doesn't work all the time, otherwise I wouldn't dissociate at all.

For anxiety I have a little bottle of orange oil— it's been found to have a statistically significant anxiety reduction effect on women in labour. I'm neither a woman nor in labour, but it works. There's also progressive muscle relaxation where you tense and then release every muscle you can. Personally deep breathing doesn't help.

 

[𝐘𝐨ñ𝐥𝐮]

Derealisation and dissociation is the worst… you're not going crazy. It's over now, and if it ever comes again, it will pass. You are going to be okay, you're not an anomaly or broken. I've experienced it, and many others have too.


Below, and you can ignore this if you want, are things that may be helpful. Do what works for you.

I personally as someone with a diagnosis of a dissociative disorder found certain ways to ground effective, like trying to distract my brain by doing easy mathematics, or when it gets really bad, trying to use an intense sensory sensation like a strong mint or something. DIS-SOS has some techniques specifically for dissociation: https://www.dis-sos.com/orientation-and-grounding/ https://www.dis-sos.com/dbt-skills-mind/ https://www.dis-sos.com/dbt-skills-body/ in order to use re severity of derealisation. I've heard 5-4-3-2-1 grounding technique is helpful for some, but not for me.

Obviously this doesn't work all the time, otherwise I wouldn't dissociate at all.

For anxiety I have a little bottle of orange oil— it's been found to have a statistically significant anxiety reduction effect on women in labour. I'm neither a woman nor in labour, but it works. There's also progressive muscle relaxation where you tense and then release every muscle you can. Personally deep breathing doesn't help.

Thanks a lot, I searched something about grounding techniques and recognize some of those you mentioned. I will definitely head those articles and start to prepare for when it happens again. Again thanks a lot.

 

[Liebestod]

I've been heavily disassociating the past couple of weeks, I feel like this is cruel, like existing in this stream of consciousness in general is just terrible, I can't help but think I'm everybody and nobody. Me thinking about reincarnation doesn't help either even though I know it's not real.

 

[𝐘𝐨ñ𝐥𝐮]

Deep disassociating is the only time Ill take benzos to pass out. Sleep it off, feel like shit the next few days, keep living untill the next time. Its not a good life. Best of luck to you.

Yeah I don't judge you, it's one of the worst feeling I had. I couldn't maintain a single though for more than 2 seconds