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ihateearth
Student
- Apr 1, 2024
- 146
My alcoholic father broke my phone charger then denied it. He's always lying about things he does while drunk. I called him on it unlike others and things blew up. Like hey, I'm in pain and don't have as much money as before so you breaking my charger isn't good.
Then he gave me a charger that doesn't work. Stupid. I just left. My life sucks so much. I hate it. I wish I got SN to peacefully go but I can't take another day here. I tried to jump before but I can't do it sober. I need to escape this reality and prison.
Its like I'm being punished. Every day is misery. I hate being born. I hope I'm never here again. God or whoever please never bring me back. This is horrible. My body hurts. My mind hurts. I hate existing. If I could slit my throat I would. At a gas station now. I'm going to ask them for a razor blade then gas up and drive to a bridge I scouted.
Nothing matters. I'm abnormal there's nothing here for me and there never was. I was outside the wall of normal human existence and emotions or how to make it here ok. I hate my existence and consciousness. Why did anything ever bring me here. I wish I'd been aborted.
Now I have to get drunk enough to jump or CTB somehow. I can't live here. I wasn't meant to ever be happy and full. I have to rush and jump without thinking. Thinking ruins it.
Also have to jump backwards. Don't face it forward. I hope to get super drunk enough to do it. Driving there then binge drinking. I don't have a gun or anything, but I need to go. I can't take living. If this doesn't work I'll do anything to escape. I need to get out of here
Then he gave me a charger that doesn't work. Stupid. I just left. My life sucks so much. I hate it. I wish I got SN to peacefully go but I can't take another day here. I tried to jump before but I can't do it sober. I need to escape this reality and prison.
Its like I'm being punished. Every day is misery. I hate being born. I hope I'm never here again. God or whoever please never bring me back. This is horrible. My body hurts. My mind hurts. I hate existing. If I could slit my throat I would. At a gas station now. I'm going to ask them for a razor blade then gas up and drive to a bridge I scouted.
Nothing matters. I'm abnormal there's nothing here for me and there never was. I was outside the wall of normal human existence and emotions or how to make it here ok. I hate my existence and consciousness. Why did anything ever bring me here. I wish I'd been aborted.
Now I have to get drunk enough to jump or CTB somehow. I can't live here. I wasn't meant to ever be happy and full. I have to rush and jump without thinking. Thinking ruins it.
Also have to jump backwards. Don't face it forward. I hope to get super drunk enough to do it. Driving there then binge drinking. I don't have a gun or anything, but I need to go. I can't take living. If this doesn't work I'll do anything to escape. I need to get out of here
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