Venting i cant stand ppl that look better than me

[frail]

i feel fking crazy everytime i see a picture of someone on social media thats prettier than me or whatever i actually feel like im going insane. i start feeling so jealous that i get sick to my stomach and i just want to hurt myself, i dont know how to deal with it. everytime i see myself in the mirror i see a hideous ogre and i want to ctb. its not like i can just hide from attractive people forever, theyre everywhere and i just feel like dying every single time i have to make eye contact with someone who looks better than me. it feels like theyre pitying me or looking down at me for being so atrocious, like they know theyre better and im worthless compared to them. i hate it so fucking much and it feels like theres no point in me living if i have to look like this

 

[Kanau_Nano]

I feel the exact same

 

[Katatonia]

i feel fking crazy everytime i see a picture of someone on social media thats prettier than me or whatever i actually feel like im going insane. i start feeling so jealous that i get sick to my stomach and i just want to hurt myself, i dont know how to deal with it. everytime i see myself in the mirror i see a hideous ogre and i want to ctb. its not like i can just hide from attractive people forever, theyre everywhere and i just feel like dying every single time i have to make eye contact with someone who looks better than me. it feels like theyre pitying me or looking down at me for being so atrocious, like they know theyre better and im worthless compared to them. i hate it so fucking much and it feels like theres no point in me living if i have to look like this

I get what youre going through. This world is terribly cruel to people who dont look perfect. All because of some 'genetic lottery' that has no influence on how a person actually is. Wishing you the best.

 

[randomuser2348]

i feel fking crazy everytime i see a picture of someone on social media thats prettier than me or whatever i actually feel like im going insane. i start feeling so jealous that i get sick to my stomach and i just want to hurt myself, i dont know how to deal with it. everytime i see myself in the mirror i see a hideous ogre and i want to ctb. its not like i can just hide from attractive people forever, theyre everywhere and i just feel like dying every single time i have to make eye contact with someone who looks better than me. it feels like theyre pitying me or looking down at me for being so atrocious, like they know theyre better and im worthless compared to them. i hate it so fucking much and it feels like theres no point in me living if i have to look like this

undoubtedly you've heard it a million times before, but modern beauty standards are inherently flawed.

our physical attraction is rooted no longer in daily life, interactions with our peers, the ability to read an individual's features and determine possibly traits, but rather what a bigwig in hollywood is looking for in a victim and forces into the media we consume.

take a second to breathe. understand that differing from the norm is okay. walk down the street and ask yourself everytime you catch a glimpse of a stranger's face; have they ever been self-conscious? no? they probably have, it's within our nature.

you are the result of millions of years of human evolution. for countless generations, your features have been sought after at one point or another. your ancestors could look another in the eye, to tangle themselves in a physical and emotional embrace.

 

[Crematoryy]

I feel sorry for you, and I want to say that I experience the same thing every day. I am taking steps to desperately try to change this, from the first to the last moment I am awake. I have decided to dedicate myself to self-improvement (even though it seems like there is little I can change) instead of giving up on myself, or making a direct physical attack against those who possess the beauty I could never have.

(BECAUSE THEY NEVER HAD TO EARN THEIR OWN BEAUTY, THEY WERE BORN WITH IT, AND THAT SOUNDS LIKE AN OUTRAGE IN THE FACE OF MY SUFFERING)

Because while I felt self-loathing, they feel satisfied being themselves, they feel self-appreciation, while being reaffirmed through compliments and pre-acceptance of their appearance. THERE HAS NEVER BEEN INSUFFICIENCY IN THEIR LIVES.

Whether we like to accept it or not, human life is determined by the economic wealth and genetic inheritance one receives at birth. We are not what we want to be, we are not what we thought we could be, we are what the world has granted us to be, like a dictator imposing its rules, like prey caught in a material web.

But know that even if no one loves you, that doesn't make you less than anyone else. You deserve love, acceptance, admiration. It is unfair, as it continues to be unfair, that you don't have that. @frail