I Can't Keep Trying, I Need To Escape. God, I Am Tired Of Fluctuating Between Life And Death.

[timechained]

I am trying to take it one day at a time, but the days are so long!!

I thought I was numb to ctb but the thought of living for decades and decades is too depressing.

I have discovered that I can actually lie down with my method which is great because it means I can just sleep into unconsciousness.

I can't wait to no longer fluctuate between wanting to die and needing to live/needing to die and wanting to live.

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I'm 56 so I don't have decades and decades left. But every minute of every day is complete hell. I suffer from major depressive disorder. What is your method? I've researched thoroughly and no totally peaceful way to go to sleep. I've decided on partial suspension as the best optionfor myself.

 

[darksouls]

I am so sorry that you are feeling so bad
that all sounds very cruel
I hope you find relief from suffering

 

[timechained]

I'm 56 so I don't have decades and decades left. But every minute of every day is complete hell. I suffer from major depressive disorder. What is your method? I've researched thoroughly and no totally peaceful way to go to sleep. I've decided on partial suspension as the best optionfor myself.

I am in my 30's. I wish you the best getting through each day.

My method is food grade nitrous oxide tank with the end of the regulator tube duct taped inside one top corner of the oven bag which will then be sealed around my neck with a rubber band.

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I am in my 30's. I wish you the best getting through each day.

My method is food grade nitrous oxide tank with the end of the regulator tube duct taped inside one top corner of the oven bag which will then be sealed around my neck with a rubber band.

Inert gas methods I do hear are painless. It just seems a more complicated method to pull off correctly.

 

[timechained]

Inert gas methods I do hear are painless. It just seems a more complicated method to pull off correctly.

Yea I've researched a lot as well, and ultimately settled on food grade nitrous oxide.

I say settled but I've tried many other methods so this is really one of my last options.