I can't do it to my mom, i have to wait for her to die first.

[Volatile]

my mental illness getting worst.i know my mom wil cry if i ctb.but she have to cry everyday if i didnt ctb.

Your post helps me a lot. Thank you. I can see the sadness my mental illnesses cause my parents while alive so dying wouldn't be that much of a stretch.

 

[creatureoflight]

My mom died recently at age 49

I know this is going to sound terrible, but I'm sorry your mother died at such an age. However, there is one good thing: at least you don't have to worry about her because of ctb. My mother is long lived and I am worried I am going to destroy her life with my ctb :/

 

[Miss clefable]

I know this is going to sound terrible, but I'm sorry your mother died at such an age. However, there is one good thing: at least you don't have to worry about her because of ctb. My mother is long lived and I am worried I am going to destroy her life with my ctb :/

I guess and I'm sorry also what does CTB stand for?

 

[Tiburcio]

CTB means "catch the bus", it basically is a form of saying "kill oneself".

 

[Miss clefable]

as far as I know, it stands for cut throat b****, meaning suicide or to kill yourself in slang.

Thanks

 

[throwaway123]

Guilt is a very powerful emotion. At some point your suffering will outweigh your need to prevent the suffering of your loved ones.

 

[Volatile]

as far as I know, it stands for cut throat b****, meaning suicide or to kill yourself in slang.

Cut throat bitch? What? LOL

 

[creatureoflight]

Cut throat bitch? What? LOL

haha oh no, I just looked in the urban dictionary and I mixed it up! It actually stands for catch the bus.
Oh no! :D Cut throat bitch is actually something else, I thought it also meant suicide because you know, cutting the throat etc...
How embarrassing!

 

[Damn]

Israel sounds fun

Sweet tell aviv won't see us going

 

[Jaguar]

It is a long time to wait