My mom argued w me the whole weekend trip and called me down this morning just tl argue w me more abt me not spending enough time w the family. I cant afford to move out. Got a useless degree and my new job wont pay enough to move out for a while at least.
Im nervous abt blood work and i cannot transition bcs transitioning requires blood work. But my mom said tht ill have to get yearly blood work anyway as i age. I already have been crying on and off for days bcs im so nervous abt getting it done tomorrow. I have gotten it done before and it has been so awful.
I am tired of fighting for every moment of happiness and alone time. College was the only time in my life i have ever been happy and life after college isnt worth living. my friends are all fading no matter how hard i try and i cant make any new ones no matter how hard i try. The loneliness is killing me and the only people who talk to me are actively making me miserable. Thc is the only thing keeping life bearable and its getting banned in November
I see no reason in continuing. I wish my mom never had me. I would do it tonight if i knew a painless way and wasnt such a pussy. Ill never be able to live as a boy even if i do move out and ill never be able to come out to my parents. i came out as poly recently bcs im.Fucking stupid and my parents already gave me shit for that. Im childfree and polyamorous so ill never find love.
Pls someone help me
Im nervous abt blood work and i cannot transition bcs transitioning requires blood work. But my mom said tht ill have to get yearly blood work anyway as i age. I already have been crying on and off for days bcs im so nervous abt getting it done tomorrow. I have gotten it done before and it has been so awful.
I am tired of fighting for every moment of happiness and alone time. College was the only time in my life i have ever been happy and life after college isnt worth living. my friends are all fading no matter how hard i try and i cant make any new ones no matter how hard i try. The loneliness is killing me and the only people who talk to me are actively making me miserable. Thc is the only thing keeping life bearable and its getting banned in November
I see no reason in continuing. I wish my mom never had me. I would do it tonight if i knew a painless way and wasnt such a pussy. Ill never be able to live as a boy even if i do move out and ill never be able to come out to my parents. i came out as poly recently bcs im.Fucking stupid and my parents already gave me shit for that. Im childfree and polyamorous so ill never find love.
Pls someone help me
