I can feel another depressive episode coming

[lovelulu]

I've enjoyed the feeling of euphoria and true happiness while it lasted. I felt unstoppable. I felt better than anyone else. I had so much motivation to do stuff. Now, I can slowly feel my motivation and controlling lowering. I can tell that another depressive episode is coming. Its nothing im not used to—but being in a state of hypomania (or atleast something similar. I dont want to self diagnose, though im trying to get one soon.) has me genuinely enjoying life for once. It was the only time I didnt feel suicidal, or atleast didnt think about it. I dont want to back into a depressive episode. I can tell that its going to be bad. I dont want this—I just want to stay the way I was before.

 

[never mind me]

Are there things that cause you to be happy at the moment? Or did while you felt better? Maybe it can help you to keep doing these things so you still have something that brings you some joy, even if you are feeling worse in general. I think it generally helps to stay active when slipping into a depressive episode, although it can't always avoid depression altogether I have the impression that people who manage to keep doing things they like and try to get on with their everyday life usually don't spiral as deep into depressions as people who completely stop doing things and just stay at home by themselves.

 

[moriix]

I've enjoyed the feeling of euphoria and true happiness while it lasted. I felt unstoppable. I felt better than anyone else. I had so much motivation to do stuff. Now, I can slowly feel my motivation and controlling lowering. I can tell that another depressive episode is coming. Its nothing im not used to—but being in a state of hypomania (or atleast something similar. I dont want to self diagnose, though im trying to get one soon.) has me genuinely enjoying life for once. It was the only time I didnt feel suicidal, or atleast didnt think about it. I dont want to back into a depressive episode. I can tell that its going to be bad. I dont want this—I just want to stay the way I was before.

same, I actually had a decently good streak recently before I ended up bedrotting for days again though I've never felt hypomania, just periods of less depression and more depression. when im in the depths of it i try to remind myself that there were times when i felt better and i just gotta hold on for a bit longer. trying to slowly crawl myself out of it right now, small steps.

make sure you don't fully slip into doing nothing as your depressive episode approaches as that state is really really hard to climb out of. maybe while you are not inside of it yet you could make a plan of small things you could do to prevent yourself from slipping fully? i hope the episode won't be as harsh as your brain is predicting it to be and if you get diagnosed with bipolar there are meds that can really help stabilize your moods.