I am the worst case scenario
Im suffering immensely from CPTSD Hyperarousal, near total Insomnia, BIND, Benzodiazepine brain injury and the most severe case of akathisia. My blood feels like it's on fire 20 hours a day and I pace around for 30 miles in my own house and it doesn't satisfy the inner restlessness and terror.
It's torture and pure agony and every day I pray God takes me.
Im looking into assisted suicide but it takes way too long for the pain I'm in and in Canada what I have is considered "mental" yet I feel like my bones and veins are on fire daily.
I sleep less than 2 hours a night of non restorative sleep and I'm genuinely suffering bevond most can comprehend.
PLEASE tell me how I can end this suffering. I've been reading about ways to do it but I genuinely don't know. A bottle of pentobarbital would be like a gift from the heavens above. All I think about all day is how to CTB but I can't make myself do anything gruesome. I'm so jealous of people dying of heart attacks and cancers. Why can't that be me??
I really wish I could get approved in Switzerland for their assisted dying program. ld pay in a heart beat yet my condition prevents me from even being able to leave the house. Let alone getting on a plane.
There are no meds that work and all of them have paradoxical effects on me. l'm stuck with this 24/7 indescribable physical and mental torture.
What can I do please help! DM me if you have answers
Im suffering immensely from CPTSD Hyperarousal, near total Insomnia, BIND, Benzodiazepine brain injury and the most severe case of akathisia. My blood feels like it's on fire 20 hours a day and I pace around for 30 miles in my own house and it doesn't satisfy the inner restlessness and terror.
It's torture and pure agony and every day I pray God takes me.
Im looking into assisted suicide but it takes way too long for the pain I'm in and in Canada what I have is considered "mental" yet I feel like my bones and veins are on fire daily.
I sleep less than 2 hours a night of non restorative sleep and I'm genuinely suffering bevond most can comprehend.
PLEASE tell me how I can end this suffering. I've been reading about ways to do it but I genuinely don't know. A bottle of pentobarbital would be like a gift from the heavens above. All I think about all day is how to CTB but I can't make myself do anything gruesome. I'm so jealous of people dying of heart attacks and cancers. Why can't that be me??
I really wish I could get approved in Switzerland for their assisted dying program. ld pay in a heart beat yet my condition prevents me from even being able to leave the house. Let alone getting on a plane.
There are no meds that work and all of them have paradoxical effects on me. l'm stuck with this 24/7 indescribable physical and mental torture.
What can I do please help! DM me if you have answers
