Everyone or anyone reading this, i don't even care if someone reads this because I just need to put it out there I can't hold it in and I can't tell people I know or the friends I know because telling them anything is just a waste of time that just leads to me being laughed at. So some days ago I had a friend who was literally closest to me we had our issues but u can't function without him or at least thats what I thought. He and I were having some issues and he straight up called me a fucking leach that just brings down everything that comes in contact. I was angry not dissapointed I begged him to stay with me a few days ago so I felt like a fucking fool that I expected him to be nice but after that I knew he was saying truth to some extent because thereafter all my relationships starting to crumble I am all alone now, depressed. Today I wanted to write and vent about all of this and opened my notes app and there I write many things like ideas for my book or just a normal vent and I clicked on the book idea and the 2nd word I saw was leach. I was describing myself for the idea of the book it was supposed to be my story. And when I saw it, I was speechless because that's not how he sees me that's how I also see myself and that is how I am. I am not going to kill myself or anything but I am depressed to a point that I don't wanna live anymore.
