Venting i am so ugly i want to die

[etoilecupid]

i may be over-exaggerating when i say that as the people around me always say "oh no! you're pretty!" but i really dont believe it. i dont believe anything anyone says anymore. i look in the mirror and i see myself and i just cry, and i can only feel at least "okay" when i wear makeup, but makeup doesnt matter, its all about natural beauty, and i dont have any. not only that, but i am so lonely and i think its because of how i look. the friends i have i would consider average even have more people who love them in their life than me, and i grew up with family absent in my life. i dont know why i was born if whatever god is out there would do this to me. another thing to add, those people who say they think i'm pretty have only seen me with makeup. they don't know the real me, or at least thats how it feels. im thinking of just ending it all but thats scary, and i honestly just wish i was never born on this planet. maybe if i do end it all, hopefully rebirthing could be real, because maybe i could restart life in a better body or something. i hate being here.

 

[Ash]

Every culture and fashion redefines the notion of beauty, and yes, alas, some people really are that shallow. What never changes, however, is who we are. We are naturally drawn to people who are kind, caring, compassionate, people who make us feel good about ourselves.

 

[AkaRed]

I was always told I was pretty and whatnot as a kid. I was complimented on my features and everything- people always assume I have a boyfriend.

They're all fucking liars and I want them all dead for lying to me

<3

 

[lotus11]

I feel like this...also I have body dysmorphoia I think cos I feel like I don't really know what I look like. I always see something different. I'm definitely starting to age now so that doesn't help. But overall I guess I inherently think that I'm ugly because of the way people treat me. People always treat me so badly and people always treat good looking people well so..

 

[GreenOctober]

Me when I get mogged by Quandale Dingle.

 

[eatantz]

i relate, when i wear makeup i feel like a pig wearing lipstick :[

 

[Crinia99]

I don't think it's about natural beauty or beauty as such, but more about how you compare to the standards of the times. When I was younger it was all about being tall, skinny and fair. It didnt matter if I was considered cute or pretty, I was still relatively unattractive because I was shorter than average and dark with no real redeemable features. This together with my low self esteem, depressive traumatised nature and quiet introverted demenour made me very ugly indeed, or at least easily used and disposed of.

But the truth is your proberbly very attractive, only beauty standards are higher these days because most people use cosmetic procedures to enhance their natural features and change their looks. You can easily buy beauty If you can afford it. A plain Jane or ugly cow can be stunning with lip augmentation, filler, botox, lipo, butt enhancement etc etc. You could get some permanent makeup tattoed on. If you can't afford anything, then you can still change your body and feel better about your body image through lifting weights and working out at the gym. You could tailor your workout for the sinched waist and big butt look that's popular or just go for the slim and athletic look, if it's more your style. Choose a look that suits you and enhance your features and be creative. Working out is also a good way to help depression, it's the only thing thats kept me going. A combination of plastic surgery, cosmetic procedures and strength training and you wont recognise yourself.

 

[rozeske]

I am an objectively ugly person, it may not be the right word to use for any human being but I am and no matter how people sugarcoat it life is extra hard when you are not attractive. Yes you can feel just a tiny bit better when you put in the effort in looking better but it gets to be exhausting and you don't always have that energy to spare. I am sorry you even have to feel this way but I guess accepting it and living with it for however long we stick around is the better alternative we have.