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guitarist-no-more

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Feb 26, 2023
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I have Ehlers-Danlos, which also causes dysautonomia and POTS symptoms. I also suffer from 24/7 stomach pain and air hunger. I have an aneurysm in my aorta which might just rupture. I suffer from allergies, spontaneous sweling of various parts of my face, rashes, itchiness. I can't eat normally. I can't exercise. I can barely even do my laundry, because it's in a separate building. I can't work, so I'm poor. There is no treatment and no cure, because it's in my genes. I also can't tolerate dysautonomia meds. Doctors are useless too and for the most part don't know anything about my illnesses, won't respect what I say to them and I'm too tired to fight with them anymore.

I have no close friends and most of them are from my active days when I trained and did various sports. Those friends have disappeared now for the most part. My long-term relationship broke down a few years ago and I'm still alone. I'll never date again, because I'm just such a mess physically and I know I'll never have anyone close in my life anymore. I'm not close with my parents and they just cause me more stress than what it's worth.

Therapy is useless, because it doesn't change anything. I just do not want to be on this Earth anymore. If only there was a button I could push to end it all without any more suffering. I've had enough of that and it continues on every day.
 
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Gaga786

Gaga786

The Odds Are Never In My favour
May 3, 2020
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Im so sorry that you have to experience and bear the cruelty of this life. It sounds like you are in immense pain. it hurts me seeing you in so much pain, but I've lost all hope in life right now. The cruelty is just unbearable to face. I wish you the best, and I hope you take care of yourself.Please let me know if I can help in any way
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,782
That sounds really horrific what you have to endure, it certainly is such a hellish world that we exist in where such torture is able to exist. And of course therapy is useless as words cannot remove the very real suffering that is being experienced. It really sounds like you've been through a lot so I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.
 

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