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- Feb 12, 2023
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idk if this should be posted in suicide discussion or recovery, i'm sorry
uhhh i haven't posted here in a long time @.@
i sorta "ruined" my plans to ctb and now i'm mad at myself??
a few weeks ago, i randomly got the urge to improve myself and get better lol
i might get a new job, i'm (mostly) content with my grades, i occasionally look forward to the future, i'm actually taking care of myself physically, etc.
nothing crazy, but a lot better than how things were a few months ago
but my bday is coming up lol
idk why, but things just feel so much worse around my birthday. i regret trying to get better, i'm constantly feeling suicidal again. now i have no means to actually ctb and i'm so upset with myself. i feel like an idiot for believing that i could get better or even be happy lmao
uhhh i haven't posted here in a long time @.@
i sorta "ruined" my plans to ctb and now i'm mad at myself??
a few weeks ago, i randomly got the urge to improve myself and get better lol
i might get a new job, i'm (mostly) content with my grades, i occasionally look forward to the future, i'm actually taking care of myself physically, etc.
nothing crazy, but a lot better than how things were a few months ago
but my bday is coming up lol
idk why, but things just feel so much worse around my birthday. i regret trying to get better, i'm constantly feeling suicidal again. now i have no means to actually ctb and i'm so upset with myself. i feel like an idiot for believing that i could get better or even be happy lmao
