Discussion how would you want people to remember you after you ctb

[Falseunderworld]

i want to be remembered like a raincloud , changing colors to one that was gray and gloomy ..that people ruined me and if i had of been treated better maybe shit like this wouldnt always happen , that people can find peace when they need it without judgement or hate

 

[Iamhere2005]

yea i get that for sure. how people show up and not doing their own healing really has an impact. i still you make it and thrive but i get it and fuck those people that wronged you--it mattered and it impacts us so severely

 

[itsallpointless]

I want to be forgotten

 

[outrider567]

The few that will miss me will remember me as an upbeat nice guy, until Jan of last year

 

[OutOfTheVoid]

i just want to be remembered for who i am. i dont want my identity to be invalidated by bigots. i dont want to be misunderstood. i also dont want to be remembered as some sanitized image, like just a mask of who i am. i want to remembered for everything i am, flaws and imperfections and all. virtue and vice alike

 

[leeloosnow]

i hope people realize that being flippant, thankless, and outright cruel actually really hurts people (after i've ctb)

 

[lonelyy]

I want to be remembered as someone who was just trying to get by and minded their business

 

[Electronic Music]

I think I've been pleasant to almost everyone I've come across, and treated most with the best I could. I'd liked to be remembered in that light if possible. Of course no one is near important enough to specifically shape someone else's opinion themselves, the thought is nice.

 

[LunaXCBN]

I want to be completely, utterly forgotten.
It hurts me to think this way, but it's for the best.

 

[FieldsofLavender]

I would honestly really love if everyone I love would just forget about me, live happier without me as a leech on them...

 

[cristaleyez]

That person who really liked Pokemon. And preferably not by my dead name.

 

[Allen123]

I just really want my family to remember me by my chosen name, and I want my chosen name to be written on my grave. And I want them to think of me as a guy instead of a girl. They don't support me at the moment, but I would like to change their minds before I die.

 

[mistake22]

I never wanted to be noticed in the first place. I found out at a young age that having a presence is a bad thing so I'd like to be forgotten about. Hopefully I become some faceless positive force that no one will ever know about

 

[catastrophix]

I don't think I really want to be remembered. My whole life, I have shown symptom after symptom of having mental illnesses, but literally everyone around me dismissed it until it couldn't be ignored. I want everyone who ignored my pleas to remember me at my lowest of lows, at the basement of rock bottom. I've always wanted my mental anguish to be seen, because I feel like it's all I really have. There is no personality for them to remember— I have only been miserable throughout.

 

[redeyepiranha]

I don't want to be remembered, I simply want to cease to exist. One of the main reason that somehow stops me from ctb is hurting family/friends, as soon as I stop caring about it, I'll ctb

 

[Fwompje]

I also want to be forgotten as soon as possible, and they will. I've always felt like anyone who looks at me wants me dead, I owe it to the world.

I do want my mom to kill herself out of guilt afterwards and I want other people to care more about her suicide than mine. Mine is inevitable

 

[HayBunny23]

I want to be remembered in death as I am in life, sad and angry.
At my funeral, I told my husband to make sure that if anyone else shows up to tell them that I hate them and that they are probably part of the reason I killed myself. I also hope there will be boiled hot dogs for lunch.

 

[Shadowlord900]

Is it odd that while I would want to be forgotten everywhere else, I would still like to be remembered on SaSu?

 

[nepeta]

forgotten like i always have been
anything but people starting to care when its too late

 

[borderline-feline]

I want to be forgotten by everyone, as if I had never even existed. I don't like the idea of people having opinions about me (positive or negative) and saying things about me (positive or negative) after I'm gone. I also don't want to have any mark left on the world. The few people I care about would be better off without me, especially my favorite person, and I want to give those people that better existence.

 

[boxtobs]

This might sound a bit much but, honestly, I don't know if I care anymore? I used to want desperately to be forgetten but these days either's fine.
Everyone's interpreting each other through so many subjective lenses and have their idea of "you" naturally skewed/diluted by the very nature of how people relate (through what context they know, have, and can understand). It's with a similar detachment I view my death. If they want to mourn or hate or claim to love their idea of me, what does it matter personally? I won't exist then (if I even do now), and they'll be projecting onto a corpse. They can see whoever they'd like in that body, y'know? It'll never be me.
It's probably more than a little fucked up of me, but I find it to be a comforting or maybe freeing thought.

 

[The Eeyorish One]

Honestly… I don't really care that much. Obviously I don't want to be remembered too poorly but ultimately, whatever helps each person deal with it is fine. I'd be gone, so it just… wouldn't matter anymore.

I guess if I really had to choose, I'd want to be remembered for my desire to help/teach people, even if I didn't get that many chances to show it. If there's an option to not even be remembered at all though that may be even better. If no one remembers, no one can be hurt by it. But that's not realistic ofc.

 

[m1v]

I want to be remembered as a luminary maybe? Like the Dragon Quest protagonist who died for its people, but "people" as in the voices in my head.

 

[rushia]

As someone who tried but failed

 

[lovesurroundsyou]

Not at all to be completely honest

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't at all. I just wish to be forgotten about completely and I take comfort in that thought. I would never want this awful and unnecessary existence to be remembered in any way. If it was possible I would completely erase my existence so it's like I never existed in the first place.

 

[hellispink]

I don't want anyone to remember me. That has no importance for me like I gain nothing. What they need to do is forget everything and keep living miserable lives. I be far gone. People are fake and they will forget others regardless. They replace and forget being alive imagine being dead. I just wanna be in peace dont care about fakeness

 

[Midnight-rain]

I don't want to be remembered at all.

 

[SleepInStatic]

Having written a pretty terrible note last night, I'm still struggling with that a bit but I think the best bet is to leave everything to the people who care about you. There's not much you can say to somebody in a note that will leave no room for interpretation and people will always try to dig deeper if they don't understand. I think just making sure that the people around me understand that there's little they could have done for me is my best option. Of course they'll probably always regret some factor or another, that's just how we work, but again, there's only so much you can do about that.

 

[hellispink]

I dont want to neither i care about it. I will be dead i wont even be able to know. By them remembering they will just suffer. Better to be forgotten