Discussion how would you want people to remember you after you ctb

[expiredfckmeat]

I want them to forget me. None of them really knew me anyway so they'll believe whatever they want, just like they do now.

 

[endless_pain]

That I tried everything that I could, even the impossible, but hey just my parents will remember, for the rest I am alone this is it. The entire family since the day I am born created the perfect conditions to drive me toward ctb, I do not even know how I am still alive.

 

[Hunter2005]

To be honest, I want to be forgotten.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I dont want people to remember me. I am worthless, and not worth remembering.

 

[uletayu]

A failure that fucked up everything

 

[Caramelized]

Honestly...I wish I could just dissappear. I don't want to be remembered and make everybody feel sad or like they could've done something because that's not true. An extra hug or conversation wouldn't make life any less pointless than it is to me, but I know that no matter what I'd say or leave behind in a suicide note, people will always blame themselves or say that I was a sad soul in need of saving by them throwing a useless suicide hotline or therapist recommendation in my face and I hate that.

 

[gaeulfeels]

I don't think i'll be remembered

 

[wiltingorchid]

I wan't to be forgotten by most people. Will most likely happen because i am pretty introverted and unsocial.
I only can think of a few people i want to be remembered by. Including by boy bsf and my family. I wish that they would understand why i ctbed and that it was the best decision i could make for myself. but that obviously won't happen, cause this society doesn't accept ctb. and it really hurts. The most realistic scenario that could happen may be that they think about the things that I did in my lifetime, what hobbys I had, while they have a smile on their face. I am not worthy of being the reason why someone cries.

 

[cwsyf]

I would like to be forgotten preferably but unfortunately that's unlikely.

 

[DeathToSpiesSMERSH]

That I'm finally free at last

 

[twitchymouse]

i want my friends to remember me when they inhale fresh air. the fall crisp air to be specific. i hope they remember me as assertive, fun, and carefree.. someone who always helped pull them out of their comfort zone. so i want them to remember me when they do something to get their adrenaline pumping.

 

[scamper]

It seems like a common sentiment by now but I don't want to be remembered at all. I don't think it'll take long for me to be forgotten though, I don't mean too much to anyone in particular so I'm not worried about what happens after really. I'm content with the position I'm in.

 

[Hihihehehuhu]

I want to be remembered as a happy smiley sunshine kid, at school i want to be remembered as quiet sweet girl and i want my family to be proud of me for being a good kid before i die

 

[ilikesharksandblue]

This might sound a bit much but, honestly, I don't know if I care anymore? I used to want desperately to be forgetten but these days either's fine.
Everyone's interpreting each other through so many subjective lenses and have their idea of "you" naturally skewed/diluted by the very nature of how people relate (through what context they know, have, and can understand). It's with a similar detachment I view my death. If they want to mourn or hate or claim to love their idea of me, what does it matter personally? I won't exist then (if I even do now), and they'll be projecting onto a corpse. They can see whoever they'd like in that body, y'know? It'll never be me.
It's probably more than a little fucked up of me, but I find it to be a comforting or maybe freeing thought.

I agree I really wouldn't care because I mean I'm dead not like I can do anything about it

 

[groucho]

I'd rather be forgotten, planning on wiping my phone of numbers when I go, I suspect most of my friends will not find out about my death and I don't get calls, once enough time has past they'll hopefully remove my number and never find out.

Sadly the only people who will remember are my family, it breaks my heart to pieces that they'll be left with the trauma but I can't carry on for much longer, I can only hope it will bring them closer together and one day they can forgive me.

Overal I hope I've done a little good here and there, made a few people feel loved or at least noticed I don't care if they acknowledge or are aware I had some hand in it just don't want this all to be for nothing, a few flowers in this landfill we call life.

 

[Sourdough]

I want to be remembered as someone who did the very best they could with some very bad cards
I want to be remembered as someone who did the very best they could with some very bad cards

 

[groucho]

I want to be remembered as a happy smiley sunshine kid, at school i want to be remembered as quiet sweet girl and i want my family to be proud of me for being a good kid before i die

If you don't mind me asking why do you want to CBT? You sound like you're quite young, as an older person it is very distressing to see so many younger people considering suicide. I know it's comforting to have this place to talk honestly about issues and suicide but that doesn't change the fact that suicide is an ugly painful thing that has devestating impacts on people's lives, it is and always should be the last option. If you're young you have time to fix things and get help.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I would like to be remembered as a kind person but I've probably been too moody and ungrateful for that.

 

[tired_starlight]

I would like people to forget about my existence. I want all my things to be burned, all my social media deleted. I don't want to be buried. I don't want any mention of me left on this earth. I want everything to be as if I never existed.

 

[Ambivalent1]

As their worst nightmare who will be waiting for them in Hell

 

[SilentSadness]

I also wish to be forgotten, there is no need to remember me. I don't want any vengeance on anyone.

 

[AkaRed]

I'd actually want to document it, weirdly enough. Like- properly document it without censorship, captioning and all. Whenever or if I start up any attempts again, that's what I'm going to do, even if nobody sees it. I don't really care to leave one note that's meant to explain everything all at once. Hell I could have a 100 part series of every attempt and edit my thoughts in as I go.

 

[Leoric]

I wish to be remembered as kind, but I don't want to be mourned by anyone. I wish people would understand it is better this way.
The reason I have no current plan to CB however, is because I have two pre-school aged daughters. Their life and me being their dad was an active choice by me, so I have no right to take away from them the father which I forced upon them and whom biology (and hopefully a dose of good treatment) has caused them to love and depend on. Though their existence can not make up for the pain this life causes me, I still love them and wish them no harm or trauma. How I wish I could make them forget me, kind of like Hermione made her parents forget her in the last book of the Harry Potter series. They deserve a better dad, but there is no substitute for reality and the absolute truth will always be that of their own feelings towards me. My love for them compells me to obey their wish for me to exist.

 

[Hihihehehuhu]

If you don't mind me asking why do you want to CBT? You sound like you're quite young, as an older person it is very distressing to see so many younger people considering suicide. I know it's comforting to have this place to talk honestly about issues and suicide but that doesn't change the fact that suicide is an ugly painful thing that has devestating impacts on people's lives, it is and always should be the last option. If you're young you have time to fix things and get help.

Thank you for caring :). I got bullied my whole life and i had to get homeschooled but now im getting bullied online, i have no friends, my family abuses me, and i have huge school problems, i also have illnesses that makes my life painful but mentally and physically

 

[StolenLife]

I want to be forgotten as I have never existed. Sadly my family will suffer.

 

[DimStarlight]

I just want to be remembered by the girl i love, but at the same time i want her to be able to move on and forget about me.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

not remembered at all, forgotten as if i had never existed

 

[Mäximum]

I really don't care at all. I'm gone anyway, so i'll not even notice what people think of me or remember me as

 

[sheepgirl]

I want people to remember me for how much I loved what made me happy, that I tried really hard to beat my illnesses and live

 

[SVEN]

I hope they don't.