Discussion How would you rate your life so far overall out of 10? And why?

[kirillbledny]

I'll start and rate mine 3/10.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

4/10 probably. Only reason why is because it hasn't been complete misery for the entire time, just most of it. For my entire childhood, I had to suffer through going to school and only being happy on days when I didn't have to be there, and in my adulthood, being a wage slave and again, being happy mostly when I don't have to be there.

I've also experienced trauma and health problems that have made enjoying what little bit out of life I could much harder than it should've been, so I won't give it a very high rating, or say that it's completely terrible either.

 

[tomame]

1/10

only because while i'm a sneeze from ending up homeless .. i at least got a job at mcdonald's today.

i just hope i don't lose it like my last 100 jobs

 

[LastNite]

5 now, 2 before.

 

[kirillbledny]

1/10

only because while i'm a sneeze from ending up homeless .. i at least got a job at mcdonald's today.

i just hope i don't lose it like my last 100 jobs

I hope it works out!

 

[StupidGirl001]

3/10
My childhood was messy + I'm not very very able to overcome bad things happening to me in a healthy way

 

[Macedonian1987]

1/10

Why? Here are the reasons:



- I have asperger's
- I felt like I never belonged in this world , even from age 5-6 years old
- I never had any true friend, I couldn't fit in anywhere and with nobody
- I never had a true relationship from a woman (no love life), women avoided me like i had some infectious disease
- I have narcisistic, cold mother , not capable of human warmth or love. refused my hugs when i was in chronic pain flareups, her explanation for this rejection - i was too old to be hugging my mother.
- lost the only person who unconditionally loved me at the age of 10 - my loving grandmother.
- My father has : ocd, mysophonia, adhd, touretes, hyperverbalia and emotionally almost dead and unaware of someone else's suffering
- I have hypotonia, and joint problems that started at the age of 24 , getting quite bad until the age of 39 (thats my current age)
- I never held a job, nor had a driver's license.


This is just my opinion, but i think that I'm realistic by giving myself 1/10. I'm not exaggerating, right?

 

[ctb_warrior]

5 on 10.
In my life, I can notice that the negative forces push me harder. On the other hand, there are benign forces that help me to rise from the dead.
That's why I'll say, i have seen it all, the good days and the bad days, hence the rating 5/10.
That's overall rating and not a rating based on how i currently feel about life

 

[TwistedNightmares]

2/10. Honestly, there are far too many reasons for me to list. I do not like my life.

 

[ctb_warrior]

If i have to give a rating based on how i feel right now, i would give 2/10

 

[itsgone2]

Zero
Everything is wrong

 

[violetforever]

3/10. im afraid of how quickly that number could drop to 0.

 

[kirillbledny]

This is just my opinion, but i think that I'm realistic by giving myself 1/10. I'm not exaggerating, right?

I don't think you are, your life sounds harsh

 

[LigottiIsRight]

3/10

Bullying and unadaptability in school times, psychological issues since early twenties, aversion to effort and obligations, general lack of interest in the game of life and its conditions.
The only positives are a stable family life and good financial situation, and the hobbies and interests I have (although the most significant and pleasurable are long gone due being malfunctioning trash).

Better never to have been.

 

[unluckysadness]

1/10. I'm not exaggerating. I don't want to give details because the list is too long when you're in your mid 40s and I've already explain a lot of things previously on this forum. I just wish I could erase all my traumas, so I could maybe answer 10/10...

 

[kirillbledny]

1/10. I'm not exaggerating. I don't want to give details because the list is too long when you're in your mid 40s and I've already explain a lot of things previously on this forum. I just wish I could erase all my traumas, so I could maybe answer 10/10...

That's how I feel too, I wish I could just erase it all and move on. Sometimes I think about if there was a respawn button and I could take the chance of being born someone else somewhere else, would I take it...

 

[Le temps perdu]

1/10
i don't really want to go into too much detail, there are other reasons too, but honestly, not having the freedom to relocate is really hard…

 

[FuneralCry]

I wouldn't rate it anything as this existence never should had happened, to suffer in this existence will always be so torturous and futile, I'll always see the existence of life as the most terrible, dreadful mistake that just tortures existing beings with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

I'll just always see it as an abomination to suffer in this existence and all I want is to erase this existence so it's like I never suffered at all, only the peace of non-existence could ever be positive for me no matter what and I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this existence that will always be just waiting to die anyway.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

my life is 0 out of 10 the worst possible

Non-Existence forever is 10/10 the best state possible no chance of unbearable pain ever. in sharp contrast for any human or animal with a brain there is always the chance of long lasting continuous constant unbearable pain while alive and living

the following is not the main reason I want suicide:

I have different beliefs than other humans .

there is no connection between me and any other human. I don't have to explain any action i do that only affects me or another who voluntarily agrees with a transaction and doesn't affect anyone else except those who mutually consented

nobody even here would understand anyway why I want suicide asap. I tried to explain "pain is a billion times worse than one can imagine:" no one understands this. most humans aren't even aware they are going to die ( do they act that way?). or how fast time passes .

I too don't understand "pain is a billion times worse than one can imagine " .if I did i would shoot myself today. if I actually understood and internalized that I would work work every second to kill myself and do it today

 

[kirillbledny]

my life is 0 out of 10 the worst possible

Non-Existence forever is 10/10 the best state possible no chance of unbearable pain ever. in sharp contrast for any human or animal with a brain there is always the chance of long lasting continuous constant unbearable pain while alive and living

Your reply reminded me of this quote from Sarah Perry's "Every Cradle is a Grave":
It's a very interesting pro-choice book. I highly recommend it.

 

[explosiveKai99]

A solid 7. I had many experiences, visited some parts of the world, had friends, experienced romance.
Downsides: too long; psychological problems, body issues; social phobia and autistic/schizoid separation from the world and people; mental homelesness in later years.

 

[suncide10]

5

 

[valar_morghulis21]

1/10

only because while i'm a sneeze from ending up homeless .. i at least got a job at mcdonald's today.

i just hope i don't lose it like my last 100 jobs

This is so relatable. Can't hold down a job for my dear life

 

[infinitesimal]

i live in a very volatile point in my life. id say it swings violently from a 1 and a 6. certain things make it that i can never experience a life thatd be a higher than a certain point. it feels like my happiness is capped at a certain level. sometimes i am happy, especially with my dog. which makes it a 6 for the time that she is with me (i want to say a 10 but im still actively suffering under the hands of others out of my or her control, she is beyond a 10. the sweetest girl)

i cant say 0, since i have to make room for new lows my life could potentially reach. i fear that i might be too melodramatic if i say that because i feel like even though ive objectively been through a lot of suffering, there are people living in worse conditions than i

 

[cr3zxxe]

4/10

Nasci em uma família que me ama muito, com boas condições financeiras, mas que não tem nenhum amor entre si (mãe e pai). Além disso, eles sempre me deram tudo o que eu queria, celular, brinquedos, etc. Meus pais dizem que qualquer um queria estar no meu lugar, mas eu odeio ter nascido assim. Só tive uma pessoa na minha vida que eu posso chamar de
amiga, e ela ainda me abandonou. Nunca obtive olhares de garotos, sofria bullying pela aparência, minha irmã morreu, meu pai é cego. Estou no meu primeiro relacionamento agora, mas ainda me sinto vazia, como se eu não merecesse isso. Acho que ele tá comigo por dó. Enfim, odeio minha vida

 

[infinitetraumacycle]

4 out of 10.


I don't remember any part in my life where I felt actually good, or atleast neutral for longer than a month.
When I think about memories I have with family and friends, most of them are giving me a negative emotion.

Everytime I think about the small child version of me, I think about how he got SA'd.
And when I was a teenager, my life wasn't any better.
My whole life has just been non-stop stress.

There are still stuff that make me happy, that's why I give it a 4/10.

 

[alexd]

-10/10

 

[Forveleth]

This is a very difficult question for me to answer as I am generally very content with my life, save for one to two very large factors. If I could go back in time, then change one singular event, but keep everything else the same. My life would be 10/10, and I would not even be here.

If I objectively look at my life though, I have everything I need. I have a job, a house, extra money, entertainment, hobbies, everything worn on paper needs to be happy. So, despite being here, I would say probably 8/10?

 

[kirillbledny]

I don't remember any part in my life where I felt actually good, or atleast neutral for longer than a month.
When I think about memories I have with family and friends, most of them are giving me a negative emotion.

I relate to this a lot. I don't remember ever being excited to live, even as a child it was just fear and praying it'd all stop.

This is a very difficult question for me to answer as I am generally very content with my life, save for one to two very large factors. If I could go back in time, then change one singular event, but keep everything else the same. My life would be 10/10, and I would not even be here.

If I objectively look at my life though, I have everything I need. I have a job, a house, extra money, entertainment, hobbies, everything worn on paper needs to be happy. So, despite being here, I would say probably 8/10?

How did you end up here?

 

[lonergirl_26]

8/10
Compared to majority of people I had/have a good life and yet here I am on this forum